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2011-02-26T05:52:00.002+08:00

As always - the day you've made your choice, I know that it's nvr possible for us to be like before. So let's live on.

2010-09-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

What I wanna say is just:

WHY NOT TRY BEING ME?

2010-08-31T02:29:00.002+08:00

I know this is random.
Eventually, I just have to face everyone, every questions, every fault, and you guys.
Returning back to school probably will be a start for that, I hope.
I'll just have to live better. It will just prepare me for the worst to come?
Should really start sorting my brain, my feelings, my life, everything around or within me. But somehow I got no idea where to start from.
Maybe someday, I will?
I dunno what will happen tmr, how will I react, what will I say but I still hope for the best.
Do your best yea?

Humans nature- contradictory? I'm no exception.
Paradoxically, I will still be there for you, the both of you.

2010-08-24T23:30:00.001+08:00

Live on JH.
You know you will and you must.
I will definitely live better.

Similarly to me or to you guys, I have already lost it.
It will be a great start out for me for a new life.
Nth hinders me anymore.
Neither of you.

2010-08-16T20:02:00.002+08:00

Know wat? I'm more than jus disappointed in you.
U Changed so much that i dun recognise you?
"does it matter?", won't u care to pass a better remark?
this aimless and lost one..
U wanna continue like this? So be it.. Probably I was the one interfering, hindering your thoughts all along. One sided wish? I thought to myself: "hey, got to work hard for our future. one day i'm gonna make sure i can give you more than what any other guys can." I don't mind waiting.. And I believe I can do it. I dun have to be with you now.
but you know what really pisses me off?

YOUR SELFISHNESS.

Frankly, from the beginning till now, you are still selfish.
You thought of having all the care and concern that u yearn to have,
You know what you told,gave and do to me?
Its either I'm catching the wrong "signals", in fact, you were jus trying to have fun and make me a fool.
You do what you want recklessly, you din give a damn about ppl who care for you. NO ONE! Not even a single one, neither your bff.
Probably you din change or I changed that now I have a whole new perspective on you.
Maybe all along your "I want what I want" attitude overwrites every single thing.
As a friend, I really dunno what can I say.. u just dun heed anybody's words.
not even melia.

God damn it, i dunno what words to use on you that I can only say that you are just lowering your status as a girl, human. Which obviously implies - Cheap.
If you think thats cos you are with him thats why it makes me feel this way? Sry to disappoint you, definitely not. You know what you did before in everywhere, anywhere, to whom or whoever. I can simply wash my hands off.. still I was just hoping that you could find a way out, did you think about it? or you just wanna sway along with the wind.

Be it if you wanna think that i'm the villain here, I am use to being accuse as one~
Take it or leave it. To be honest you are just arrogant and wanna be superior. Frankly, I do really see the link why both of you use to be best frens. It just happens that both of you react to matters in the same way. If you wanna continue as you are, then one day your traumas will simply return AGAIN. Whatever you fear towards r/s, it will happen again even if it is the one that you are in now. You won't wanna take this bet with me. Similarly, you will just lose every single one beside you, even if there are anybody by your side- who are the true/real ones?
You get the same treatment back on how you treat others.

You know what makes you diff now?
You are no longer an independent one- probably you are jus too dependent on guys? To be put it differently, you can't leave w/o a guy.
I used to admire your character, at the same time attracted to it, an arrogant one but really knows what she wants; an individual that works really hard for her aims; have a planned ahead life; responsible-self, at the least consider about how others feel. Yet now, you are still an arrogant one but knows nth about what you want, Just aimlessly fighting for what is not necessary; a laid back self- as good as useless; always anticipating what might happen the next min- probably ends up like a beggar; Self-centered one; Of course putting yourself at the top priority. Which makes you someone really diff.

Its either i really dunno you well that all along you are like this, or you've really change. I dun need an answer. you determine urself. You dun have to correct me, cos everyone learn from mistakes so do I, I dunno how are you gonna find fault in me. But I definitely believe that I reflect on myself, at the least better than you do.
Last time I feel that you can comment on whatever I do, my circle of frens does. I won't really take it to heart, cos I believe 1stly- freedom of speech 2ndly- no one is perfect 3rdly- comparably you are probably wiser/mature. Now, anyone that comment on you infront of me- doesn't matter cos even a kid knows what he/she wants at the least in the short term; knows how to discern right and wrong as the grow. You- just clueless.

Probably if you see this, you might get agitated but I can really anticipate this coming true. But if you dun learn to take ppl's comments, you won't improve. Just like how you study in school: you are being force, you are being scolded. Why not think what did you do wrong; Can i really be perfect? ; In reality, do I always get what I want?; Shld i learn to give in; Shld I learn how to stand by myself?
Its all these small little experience that you gain which makes you grow/improve.
Whats the use of always taking anger as the only way out to vent your emotions or blaming others for commenting,reprimand you? It all goes back to : What did i do that shld be improve?

Just get alive, no-one, NO-one, will be by ureself every moment being your pillar. Even your partner dies.. You learn and be dependent on yourself. Whats more your bff?
You can insist on whatever you want over this issue- Come on, u are just living in denial. She got her own life as well, when smth else comes into play, you might be the one being sacrifice instead. Its reality- face it.
Dun expect everyone to give in to you. You might be superior infront us but doesn't mean you will be towards others. Its the attitude.

Up to you to decide who you wanna be, what you want in your life - until then probably you will just be destroying our r/s and the CLICK' will just break off. Believe me or not~ I think I have done enough for holding all of us together. I'm really out of this. I dunno how well you know me - in a way, I never been so disappointed, upset, angry over everything before, particularly this matter.
But since I am made to lose the frend that is most important in my life- to me there is nth that I can't lose which includes you. Probably an extreme action but if you would have made it clear to all of us probably we din have to come to such state.
It doesn't really matter now, who knows if 10 years down the road you have become a better self? for now i doubt you will heed any of my advice. So be it..

This is all I can do already.

2010-07-30T15:13:00.002+08:00

you just made me feel like i just a make a fool out of myself.
当自己不能得到时，却那么踊跃地争取。当你得到时，却那么残忍地不要了。你是在玩我吗？
我真的适着去体会，了解你或他，但是到底谁适着了解我呢？！？！
现在做出了选择，我没崔你要个答案，但你却狠心地冷漠我。
之前不是这样的吧？我不想给你压力，或烦你，因为我知道你学业方面已经够压力，也知道你的处境不方便。仍然的我应该没有必要受到这样的待遇吧？怎么你们两都这样呢？
是我的问题吗？
若我离开会不会对大家都好一点？你们说呢？
真的我宁愿你跟我说你选择他，大大好过我在这里猜你要什么。
我只能说我很失望。若有一天以前的俊贺不存在了，想必也知道为何。
你们让我在这件事体会了很多。
无论在友谊或爱情里，只要谁先动情，谁就输。
依然的，原来我们来到这世上到我们死去都只是自己孤独地走。

我是第一次地正式追求你，也是第一次真正地去追求一个人，换来却是失望与悲伤。
我只想利用今晚得到一个明确的答案，因为自己不想有一天因为这件事崩溃，直到有一天必须来部落各写遗书。
无论答案如何，我都已经选择如何去面对了。

2010-07-29T23:21:00.001+08:00

if all these things makes me a bastard, then what are you guys?

2010-07-22T16:19:00.003+08:00

today signifies the day that I lost my best friend.
Apparently someone I thought that would last still the very end of my life.
Someone, I thought would help or be there for me if I fall.
Someone, I thought its worth giving in to.
Someone, I always treated like he is my blood ties.
Someone, I thought is emotionally more vulnerable than he looks.
Someone, I can give up so much for.
Someone, that ppl can't understand him neither can he understand himself, yet i'm pretty sure i understand him more than he does.
Someone, that i'm afraid that i might lose

This very someone helped me in a way or another through out the years but eventually it lost to he's weakness- LOVE, incomparable to a brotherhood for so many years. This is really a wake up call for me, it made me realise how one can be so selfish, inhuman and FUCK UP. Even at the sight that i'm putting down my dignity to hold on to it, he wasn't feeling anything- not a single bit. I did my best, I really did but its jus that "take it for granted" feeling that you are giving to me that really make my heart die on you. I'm surprised by how much I can contribute to this friendship yet earning nth but losing you instead. I believe I did think for you in many ways, still its really time for me to do something for myself... Else I will jus break down~

I'm sorry that we ahve to come to this point. Since this is what you want, I give it to you. Though its really hard for me, probably not you but I trust that I can walk on. I won't let you become a hindrance to my life, my future.

I was hoping for a apology throughout yet...
Thanks for giving me kinda wonderful experiences. In a way, it really made me grew up alot throughout the years. You know how I treated you and how you treated me. Now, I'm sorry...

U marked my life, ben

2010-07-21T18:45:00.002+08:00

I'm scared, I fear that I might lose you to someone else again. Nvr thought that I would fear so much, my feelings my emotions are overwhelming, yet I am held back by what I should do. I know that I am on the path to gain those guts that u claim I should have, but what if these courage that I am gaining might lose to his words/actions? Why must this thing revolves around the both of you...

Probably I should really fight for what I really want.

2010-07-20T20:19:00.001+08:00

every moment when i look at my phone, i was hoping its you~

2010-07-15T15:20:00.002+08:00

guess i should just private my blog.. since it matters to you SO MUCH.

its really weird luh, i can't believe u totally twisted my actions, my words in ure favour. All just to direct the blame to me. HA! Honestly, I dun regret that I made all of these choices, even not giving u a clear answer- I dun tink its my fault either? Cos whether its a yes or no, I have a already told you not to go along with her recklessness initially and u jus went against me. In the end blaming me? I still rmb u telling me that u will bear the consequences, yet now forcing her to give you some security that u yearn to have and even sacrificing our friendship. Is that how you define bearing the consequences? Ain't bearing the consequences means that you will accept anything that comeby~ I can't believe you are that self-fish, at the least this time you are. Manipulating everything. Dun you understand that you were the one who got involve in this whole thing, EVEN when I stopped you, now I'm to blame? My feelings for her has always been there, it is just that it was hidden underneath somewhere in my heart at that time.. i thought u always knew. In fact you din, or rather you knew but chose to go on with it. you saw us coming to this state din you? Daniel once said: you tend to get close to ure bro's love. I did defend you initially but somehow it seems like its getting much clearer now. No matter how serious the matter is, I suppose it isn't even right for you to say that i'm the 2nd HS- fall in love with bro's gf. HA! I nvr once seriously told you that, yet u used it on me? Have ever gave a single thought that you are the third party in fact? First-karen then grace now Her. you kinda like this kind of r/s ? I really dun like to say these things but you are getting ridiculous.

Cos you are that F-ing important to me that I did so much. How abt this? How does it feel when you are just "giving" ure best bro your deepest love since young, yet I can't speak a word abt it? I can't vent my emotions? I don't vent it on you did I? I seriously do suspect how u love someone: by clinging on her, by holding on her. previously with grace as well.. U clearly know that grace still love xiang but u totally making her in a difficult position. It was cos of you! now wat? don't you find some signs of resemblance? Its cos I felt that you were dragged into this thing "innocently", tat I dun tink she nor me shld be unfair to you. In fact, if you really think back, are u really that innocent? Firstly: I stopped you and u insist on it. Secondly: I believe she wasn't the one who kinda started this thing? WHOSE THE F-ing BASTARD WHO SAID "I LIKE THAT 25 HRS WITH YOU". I'm sry I saw it, but that was after I refrained from doing such things for so long but wat you said forced me to the extreme. The last resort that I can at the least know whats happening. You are telling me that if me and her were as good frens, you are ok with it. ARE YOU SURE? It was just words to cover up ure jealousy, ure vested interests.I understand how it feels. You do know that I still had feelings for her, or rather even before I know it.. RIGHT? I bet so, consider how long we know each other. You fail to realise your mistakes.. dragging our r/s into it. even if you manage to see this i bet u will jus deny or not even bother to explain URE so called purposes behind it. By telling me ure rationale was: you want to do what you want, it simply tells me that it was just to cover up ure desperate-ness for love or rather complicated r/s. I'm sry to say these, I dun really like to speak like this but consider what you have said to me this is jus 1/5 of it?

I bother to endure everything just to make sure that you ain't suffering, I bother to put down my dignity and apologise to you even though I was sure that I wasn't totally at fault, I bother to explain to others that what you've done wasn't what they intrepreted with the vague stories, I bother to even tell her to give you a chance consider my feelings for her, I bother to think of how you feel, I bother to think of how unexpressive you are and any little things you do and I manage to see it... I try to take it as a comfort, take it as I'm at the least doing for a purpose rather than nth in return. I bother to even initiate to contact you, talk to you, understand you. I bother to be a fucking idiot- knowingly that its my crucial year yet bothering abt your matter. I bother to comply with almost everything you want. I bother to tolerate further by telling myself you will understand one day. I bother to do so much to hold on to this friendship JUST COS U R MY FUCKING BROTHER. I bother to even call you a brother now, cos having this word coming out from my mouth ain't easy, if i said you are I meant it. I bother to treat you like my F-ing blood Brother that everything you did, I try to forgive and forget. Yet you are still telling me: FUCK OF MY LIFE!

You know why I find it ridiculous? I find that i'm the innocent one here, Its like i'm blamed for smth I tried to stop and endured so much? Yet, becoming the villian here. WHY NOT WE JUST F-ing change position huh? probably you will feel what I am feeling now, cos i noe how you feel thats y I did so much but you took it the other way. And probably you understand how it feels being malign, the fear of contacting her cos of you, the barrier between me and her, having to be forced to choose between 2 most important ppl in your life, seeing her with another guy by her side and yet CAN'T help her, having to both as priorities over yourself? Even at the very beginning the thought of being with her has diminish even if you guys were to break up, cos I have to think of how to let you get over it rather than adding on to your pain? HAVE YOU THOUGHT OF aLL THESE? or rather I am still the THIRD party in your eyes?

If you wanna know if I were you what will I do? Basically you won't gif a damn abt your friendship, whats more me. But the least thing I will do, I won't cling on her and make her in a difficult position. That's the least thing I will do, I won't force her to give me security cos I brought these upon myself and I break the ground rules. AS SIMPLE AS THAT, even how hard it is for me, at the least she is not implicated by it. DOUBT you understand.. u can deny but you are too possessive.

2010-07-14T21:55:00.001+08:00

really hope that it turns out well..

2010-06-23T14:10:00.002+08:00

你的一举一动，已经不再像你所说的。我不知为何你把一切都怪罪在我身上。
因为了解你的心情所以才做出等等的决定。因为怕你受伤所以宁愿自己承受一切。当然自己没曾想过要那么伟大，只是单单地是因为你。反而我无法不去害怕我的信任会不会再次被背叛，我珍惜你这个兄弟，但你却似乎一点也不在乎。因为看到了我心里的感触所以感到不安？妒忌？虽然多次的保证，你却还不相信我，怀疑了她和你自己。既然我说过，将来你们是佛有结果就只能靠自己的造化，我不会插手就是不会。。我不知为何你能那么过分地重色情友，是我不值得？还是你不知要如何面对我。或许你现在无奈的心情是当初我的心情，终于了解了吗? 你现在所体验的心情，多多少少都会跟我当初差不多吧。你不曾向我解释过，之间的距离已经很遥远。。。你说无人理解你或替你想，但我敢说的是我有。。。有到连自己现在该做什么都不知道。。我真的很尽量地去挽回，但你却一直把我推开。一直到现在。。我怕自己先倒下，一开始不是我开始这种种的一切，但你却过份地留我自己一个人去猜去想去挽留。我需要顾虑的人不只你，但你给我的感觉你只是因爱情而烦。。对你来说我的顾虑是多此一举的吗？现在自私的人是你。。我适着想了解你，但依然你冷漠的对待这个友情让我觉得很心酸。。。

2010-06-20T21:21:00.002+08:00

I suppose most ppl know tat i'm blogging now -.- OH WELL!

不知自己能为你做什么。或许你也亲身体验了我之前的感受。只想你在我面前把一切都说出来吧。
我没故意让你感到不好受，我也尽量去不让你感到不安。我没曾故意想挑破离间，或许你不了解我做的一切。还是像以前一样觉得是理所当然，如果你觉得是，那对不起，这一切只单单是因为是你。我不知你是如何去在我立场想的，但我有替你想，感觉不到并不代表没有，可能只是你自己觉得是我愧欠你的？我没愧欠任何人。。。一开始不是我切入的而是你选择一起疯，多次的讲解也是你选择不去相信。如今，我不知看不看得到我做得一切，我不想把自己说成像圣人似的，自私的念头必然会有。。但你却还是在事情的第一位。今天所说的话，已够证明你从头到尾都对我怀疑着，你或许会否认，但这是我感觉的加上你的行动。。真的说不上来。我不知你还想要求我什么，你是怀疑自己没能力感动她还是怀疑她或则我。你清楚得很。。。或则你要的是我完全与她断连关系？请指导我。。。

2010-06-17T03:27:00.002+08:00

WAT SHLD I SAY since melia teo noes i'm blogging LOLS.

我以为- nice song LOL.
我以为是该低调的。
虽然知道终有一天依然会看见，但没想到影响还蛮大的。人性吗？若什么感觉也没有就代表自己已不懂什么叫情字？这只是开始吧，或许还不习惯吧，久了可能也会变成自然了吧？也知道当时下的决定，就应该准备将来临的一切，嗨！人生真是充满了矛盾啊！
就让我发泄发泄吧，或许只能告诉自己一会儿就没事了。反正当下的决定，怎样都会有人受伤，为何又要继续这残忍的游戏把残忍棒传来传去呢。依然会告诉自己什么都没看到也不知道。。。

曾想过万一这一切换来的只是一句不需要，我又该如何呢？会杀人吧？！
只能希望别让我再次失望，到那时或许我只能说　ｇａｍｅ　ｏｖｅｒ．

我以为自己还能拿起跟多的勇气。
ｌａｌａｌａ～

2010-06-13T05:28:00.003+08:00

我渴望时间能停在那一瞬间的拥抱！但我们还是得继续走下去。自己没想到谈话后既然能感觉如此轻松。。。就算知道陪伴在你身旁的不是我，我也选择了不去伤害他，但真的好想找回了自己。我依然觉得他会做得比我更好。或许像你说的我没胆量，可能吧，我不能那么自私因为他对我来说也很重要。我选择了等待，既然已经等了那么多年也不差多等一会儿对吧？等待有一天我能真真实实无需顾虑他人时追求你吧。是佛未来你们有结果，对我来说已经说不上来了。但最后希望你知道的是愧疚歉意永远不存在在爱情中。或许到时他感动到了你，我也只能认命吧-依然会是等待。等待对我来说可能已成了习惯，但似乎难于他人动情了吧？

不知不觉地原谅你了吧？
我爱你..

2010-06-09T23:13:00.002+08:00

王俊贺你到底在想什么！你要的是什么！
在乎是因为你是我好朋友还是因为隐藏以久的感情终于流露了出来？

隔了那么久的感情已不知是佛是爱情，这一切呈我无防备时侵略了我心让我不知所措。
曾经那么的天真以为自己对待爱情已有了一番新的领悟，把自己隔离与所谓的爱情，其实自己也不例外，原来一直以来都还被困在爱情的圈套里无法自拔。这是人吗？一个不变的人性吗？

一切来得太突然了，我已猜不透你的心。对我来说之前你说的似乎也是我预料的- 你只是需要一个男人陪你，所谓的爱我。。。似乎只是自己的保护色。不管你多想解释自己的无辜，依然你做的一切证明了你自私地想要自己要的东西却没想到身旁的人- 尤其是我。我不知道这是佛是你在欺骗我还是你自己。当时的拒绝，一直到现在我没后悔，要的只是你认清自己的心，反而你却更离谱。我真的失望，但又如何呢? 你们在我心上深深地刮了一刀，一个连我自己都不知何时或如何愈疗的伤。曾经可能爱情现在已变得不可能了，就算我有多想或或许多爱你，也还是不可能了。

从小到大，我那么的纵容你，自己没曾对你那么失望过。事情发展到现在让我不知如何去面对你，不知是佛是自己在逃避还是什么，但已没有勇气像以前那样看着你。这的确对我的影响很大，或许也点醒了沉睡已久的心灵，但一切来得太迟了。关心在乎担心都有，不希望你喝太多酒因为我担心，不想你天天到舞吧因为自己不在你身旁保护你，冰冷的眼神只是一层面具来掩饰我懦弱的心，与我好友在一起-嫉妒或许有，终究你们自私的选择让我更难受。无法想象的痛，我努力挽回过。。。似乎还是于事无补。是我做得不够还是对你们来说我不值得呢？

那天好友的话的的确确感动了我，显示的也只是我不得不接受一切。你们两人对我都很重要，好友的话，身旁的人等等，我不得不去考虑这种种的一切。我也想自私，我想为了自己争取自己想要的，好友的话却把这念头给打消了。在他面前微薄的心却流露了出来，我心软了。这又如何呢？这也代表就算有多少委屈，伤心，心痛，一万个不愿意，我都得憋住气往肚子里吞。所谓对他人善良就是对自己残忍。。。我给了自己和他一个机会，那天的话我终究选择相信。我真的承受不了再次背叛
我对你的信任。不知为何，你那两年前内疚的眼神再次地出现，对我愧欠吗？就算如此，为何又要开始呢？看到我的悲伤你说你也心疼也伤心，一切的确是为了我但是依然还是一样的问题-为何又要开始呢？两人都说你们把我放在优先的位置，但事实并非如此。如果真是这样，那当初在我多次的解释甚至拜托，却依然还是不听反而伤到了我。。。

我真的需要时间-不是去接受，而是让自己更好过。我会努力，只是害怕自己不知能忍受多久。。真希望泪水真的是解药。依然选择已经落在我手上，你们终究还是自私地不想做选择，我因不知不觉被拖下水所以要起事的人做选择，反而你们却那么残忍地让我做选择。。。这是命吗？无法躲开吗？次次想隔离与人世，不想管不想知道更不想看到。。。最怕的也是从爱变恨。。。我真的怕。。
若有一天，跟任何一方说对不起时可能已经是绝望了。

每天只能告诉自己加油，希望自己能做到。痛也只能在心上默默地喊。
再次的：王俊贺加油！

2010-05-25T17:47:00.002+08:00

FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT!

WHAT's with you?! I CAN't help it but get pissed. the image of GRACE in you jus keeps appearing in my mind. U R my FUCKING BEST FREND, what god damn reckless for once. have u gone retard? y not be reckless and fucking JUMP down frm your hse? is tat how irresponsible u can get... is either u have changed or i failed as a friend to know tat you are like this all along...
I'm really lost of words.... WHAT U WANT MAN. LSH JUS GET A HOLD OF URSELF.

totally a good thing that my blog is dead~~~~~

2009-12-24T03:16:00.002+08:00

wad the fag wad the fag!!!
guess we are all just drifting apart.
well, everyone has their own path to take..
speechless.

I'm gonna get my room repaint TMR!

2009-09-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

It's Melia's advance B'day celebration TODAY!
Great Day, Great ppl.
Melia was the 2nd friend i met on my very 1st day of
secondary school life, and... everything just seems like it just happened.
in fact, it has been 4 years+.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE,
MELIA TEO!

已经很久没感到如此。。无奈
之前都很积极地对待每件事，
但不知为何好想发泄发泄一下。
为何世上会被时间不停地缠绕着。
时间不累吗？就停一停歇会儿不会怎样吧？

真的有太多的话对身边的每一个人说。。
无时无刻都想拥抱你们说声“谢谢你”。

2009-08-02T23:56:00.003+08:00

very exhausted but still, i have the sudden urge to blog.
J1 life passed really fast, hardly able to adapt to the school yet.
seriously ever since EVPS CO, i thought i wont be able to
get back the feeling of an "Orchestra". (of my own definition)
But came SYCO which really brightens my life.
Especially at this crucial point of time, with all that mugging
and fear of retaining, it seriously ruined my mood.
i am just attached to SYCO, each wonderful peeps, Guo ls.
Each performance with SYCO is really enjoyable,
each notes are not plainly notes but emotions within us.

hopefully i can really promote to J2,
i will miss SYco practices..
going to LAO PA SA!

P.S. Xiangle: MEDICS! wished that u will get well soon.
I am sure u will be able to overcome it.
SYCO will be there to give you our best support.
u really serve as a PERFECT Chairman of SY.

2009-06-23T02:31:00.004+08:00

I am back from GENTING!

I suppose its an awesome trip, especially with the guys.
Its kinda chilly there, still rmb the last time i went there when i was
like primary school?
There wasnt much change there from what i rmb.
and the amazing thing is our bus plate number : JHE 3299.
MY BUS!!! forgotten to take a pic of it.

the 4 of us manage to complete most of the rides in the theme park.
of cos it was alot better than ESCAPE theme park.
highlights rides like CORKSCREW and SPIDERMAN was simply thrilling.
SPACESHOT was EXTREMELY thrilling but kinda terrible experience.
its just like commiting suicide from almost 15-20 floors height.

din have much to enjoy on the 3rd day but we went to the Karoke
with HS family members. Drank a little and sang.
HS little cousin could sing too, damn adorable.
Memorable trip i would say,
advantage of going oversea trips with friends..

somehow bak to HERE.

STRESS just rushed to me.
one week time, its MID-years.
seriously no idea what to do.
I AM EXPLODING SOON!

2009-06-16T04:16:00.002+08:00

WO! randomness, i noe my blog is dying or rather died once again.
saw several blogs, so decided to pop up again.
i'm at HS house. 4.17am and i'm still awake.
PARTY WORLD later along with grace, xiang, hs and xiaoben
[i was force to type the name by hs tsk tsktsk..]
both of us are damn bored now.
YES! and his looking at me posting now! FREAK!
can his eyes simply jus turn to somewhere else.

Genting trip in jus 3days.
excited, nervous, OVERWHELMED!

SYco concert was a success previously.
lotsa hard work put in by many peeps.
next up:
July 30: SYF closing ceremony
we will be playing Tian wang &
Taiyang(along with the 2 percussionist during the june concert)
August 2: Botanical garden public concert
BE THERE!

School is so boring! my god! i nid seriously mugging for mid-years.

will be bak soon...

2009-04-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

its 4D gathering today.
it is really fantastic to meet up wit ure class
after so long..

jus miss the playful and noisy class we use to haf.
the class that many teachers are afraid of coming in.
the class that is bonded by hearts nt surface.
the class many people look down on but manage to proof them
wrong wit our results.
the class that contains lotsa memories in my sec sch life.
ITS 4D 08.

went bak to school tat day to get testi & grad. cert.
seriously pissed by the VP.
he really fail his job as a VP.
such an educator wit such attitude shld be exterminated! LOL!
i told yvonne this "if Cchy dun regard us as their student neither do we!"

i hate the school, seriously it sucks.
but wat makes the school interesting, its the friendship u manage to bond there.
however, now in a new environment, its great and with good teachers.
Afterall, its jus a shell, a really beautiful shell but somehow
its a different feeling, the friends?
IT TOTALLY DIFFERENT.
u will jus miss the past.
those really wonderful moment that many might have taken it for granted.

hoping to maintain the great class i once had,
the great friends, clique and bros i had.

but really big thank for 3 great friends i have,
that i can open my heart to and brg colours to my new environment.

if time can turn bak...

2009-02-25T22:38:00.008+08:00

My 17 birthday rounded up fantastically!

Birthday chalet with my BROS and the GIRLS on sat.
21 FEB 09

Grace belated B'day
My advance B'day!

the GUYS.

Spastic PIC! INNOCENT big guys?!?!?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

THANKS ALOT GUYS! and the SIS.

23 feb 09

CLIQUE CELEBRATION!
Sakae BUFFET once again!
last year was the same thing!
but this time everione was present,
tats wat i am glad abt.
After Sakae we went to catch a movie
UNDERWORLD: RISE OF THE LYCAN!
obviously we did smth then manage to enter :)

LOVE THE CLICK`!
our KIDDY retarded photos.
all so young and cute HUH!
LASTLY!!! they got a addidas watch for me!
THANKS MAN CLICK`!
and... on the ACTUAL DAY
25 FEB 09
Xiang and Daniel accompany out todae.
we went to PEPPER LUNCH
for LUNCH.
then go around slacking!
simply life wit u guys is enough.
THANKS guys! on this actual day,
u guys take time to come out wit me!
really appreciated it alot.

the two and ME:
LASTLY they got me a BRACLET!
THANKS MAN!
anyway the process of daniel getting
for me this is really a JOKE!
nvm dan u r cute enough LOLS.
thanks alot.
Met up Wenyi, Stacy and Zoey at AMK HUB!
cos somehow i din attend school today and
they actually planned a surprise for me.
so had to meet at AMK HUB instead.
they actually made this mango thingy,
which is super DELICIOUS esp. i am
a mango lover.
SURPRISINGLY!
i pestered them to get a sport shoe for me jus yst!
and today they gt this voucher from world of sport for me,
i seriously gt no idea we can buy WOS vouchers!
Nonetheless, girls i really appreciate ure efforts alot!
thanks!
u girls marked a wonderful day for me too.

FINALLY, finale of the day!!!
Dining with HUI!!!
we had dinner at FISH & CO.
After which, we went to another restaurant for dessert jus
next to fish & co.
its a japanese restaurant, quite cool.
we finished our dessert with a extremely full stomach!

this was what i ate:
then hui wanted to take neoprint at Heeren,
but somehow the shop had close down long ago.
But probably we are suppose to take a picture somehow.
hui spot a SKETCH machine nearby,
so we toyed with it :)

"Leonardo" was the artist, tats wat the machine told us.
Journey home was fast,
maybe time really FLIES.
exhausting day, but i really enjoyed it alot!
thanks alot HUI :)

AND! the min i met up wit hui,
she manage to spot a beautiful rainbow
tat supposingly marked our day.

SPECIAL THANKS TO these ppl who msged me
or wished me on msn
in random order:
sihui, melia, nana, joel, serene,
ben, daniel, ruting, jiayan, yvonne,
yoketing, amanda, wenyi, grace,
zoey, sheryl(high class herna), Kaiting,
hazwani, yu en, junxi, wika, Daryl, fiona, jasontan,
yangjin, gladys, joey, charmaine, jesslyn,
sunhui, vivian, zihui
and ppl who i missed out (if there is?)

THANKS ALOT!
my 17th birthday shall end with SMILES :)

2009-02-25T01:36:00.001+08:00

I AM 17!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MYSELF!

Advance celebration had been AWESOME!
expecting more LATER ON!

2009-02-18T22:41:00.004+08:00

N-Y-J-C

*claps**claps*

ages since i blogged.
a new beginning for me,
new school, new teachers, new friends,
new subjects, new SUCKY timetable.
its all NEW!
guess wont be blogging any sooner.
seriously my timetable is PACKED like HELL!
which also includes co practices and syco!
reach home like 10+ pm almost daily.
my timetable seriously SUCKS to the core.

HOWEVER, NYJC is really enjoyable.
Orientation was fantastic,
DISCO NIGHT, MASS DANCE,
WET GAMES, SENTOSA, CHEERING.
seriously lotsa fun!
manage to make new friends.
MOST IMPORTANTLY!
my school got a handful of CHIO BU!

SENSATION benny: head OGL for MELMAN, i suppose?
WEILUN, our MELMAN 4 OGL

me, yuen and zan with CORINA our OGL too.
yizhe our another OGL*
NYJC 0914!!!

Special thanks to our OGLs which makes
this whole orientation super FUN!

a last thing to end off.
my BIRTHDAY, 25 feb, its coming SOON!
sweet 17...
really expect to enjoy my sweet 17 birthday,
expecting this sat,sun and especially next WED.
anybody who din get present for me,
get it now!!!! wahaha :)

mugging begins *zzzz*

2009-01-13T00:59:00.003+08:00

AI WAN AI WAN!!!
got bak my results finally,
no more such nervous scene!!!
the scene today was extremely horrible.
my heart was thumping fast since morning.
miss wong k.y. told i did veri well,
i was even scared..
got into the hall with all of the craps
tat makes the scene more tense up.
i once told myself, when i get my results only tears
of joy can drop. AND I DID IT!!!
thank god man...
was satisfied with my results but
my english really did pull me down alot!
but veri happy abt my the other 6 subjects.
eng-c6
chi-A2
Maths-b3
CH-b3
CS-A2
Science-A1
FNN-A1

L1R5- 16
L1R4- 13

really lots of thanks to the teachers especially
MISS TAY LI CHING!!! my fnn got A1!
[i actually shouted in the hall, was overjoyed :)]
Mr Stanley lim and sabrina Tan!
my CH from C5 to a b3! THANKS!
BIG THANK YOU TO
mr tan t.s, choo poh poh for my science!
[which i really hope i can get a A1, and i GOT IT!]
Miss wong S.L for my CS!
Fyn Ang and MRS NG for my maths!

THANKS MAN CHERS!

another worth to happy abt is our FNN classes.
90.4% passes this year which like around 40% difference as
compared to last batch.
0% dist for last batch and 12.++ % dist for our batch!
OO!
initially everione hated fnn cos all bet tat will fail,
but it turns out different!
CONGRATS 4D, 4E.

our class overall did extremely gd i suppose?
last batch of 4D/4E average 25.4 pts,
4D'08 got average of 20.+ pts.
i bet it surprised the teachers alot.
we haf proved tat the last class can do better!

2009-01-12T11:25:00.001+08:00

Exactly 2 and a half hours to release of RESULTS!

GD LUCK PEEPS!

2009-01-11T00:56:00.005+08:00

WOW!!! finally here to update my

ancient blog. Wanted to update after Os but simply
dragged till now, when release of results is jus around 35 hrs more.
reasons for not blogging:
1. LAZY!
2. din receive many pics, e.g. grad day pic, taiwan trip pic etc.
3. have been going out practically everyday!

this holiday goes well perfectly for me.
quited my job at JONES after the taiwan trip,
honestly its interesting working there but the new manager
din leave a gd impression for me!
JOBLESS now! but guess i shld enjoy to the fullness,
probably no such long holidays in the future.

4D peeps, seriously miss fun in school.
although CCHY itself is really detestable.
However, the memories and each happenings are
really memorable.
seeing many students going to school on the 2nd of jan 09,
really makes me feel uncomfortable.
it was really exciting to go to school on the 1st day it reopens.
Wish ALL 4D peeps best of luck for ure RESULTS.

Taiwan trip!
it has been "decades" since i took a plane.
its not exactly tat nice, probably the plane wasn't gd?
anyway, taiwan trip was FANTASTIC.
really enjoyable especially with CLIQUE' as well as
the other 17 sec 4 peeps.
Although some conflict really had make us really unhappy,
but still its enjoyable.
got bak lots of stuff, tats the best!
celebrated crystal's b'day in advance there.
hopefully she loves it.
lastly, STANLEY was wonderful.
help us out and brg us to haf fun.
THANKS MR LIM!

Crystal's belated birthday CELEBRATION!
the CLIQUE' had organized a bbq celebration for her.
food was nice cos i BBQ it!
wore CLIQUE' T. for her birthday.
simply COOL!

4 BROTHERS outing!
4 of us went out together, do some CRAZY STUFF.
and some CAMWHORE too!
"guys do tat too :)"
wateva we haf done and gone through together,
will follow through my life.
6 of 9Bs had opened school.
probably we are separated physically but
our heart still stay as one HUH?!
U guys must really score well in ure course,
whether the school sucks or not.
afterall, benefits for doing well still goes to u.
RMB! HI-tech devices- HP!

Lastly- SYCO CHALET.
din get any pics taken during the chalet yet,
but will update as soon as i get it.
but simply it was another enjoyable
activity for my holiday.
the INTERNATIONAL drinking card game,
introduce by JO was super fun.
HOWEVER, joel end up becoming a crazy drunk man.
THANK PEEPS for the fun!

i will be bak after the release of my results,
my GOD BLESS ME!!!

2008-11-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

AH SAD! lols,
jus saw the balloting for National Chinese Music competition for suona.
only 4 peeps participating in the youth category.
shld haf joined like wat yvonne said.
3 frm SY.
next time will be like 2 years later?!
nvm shall prepare earlier this time.
so tat i can handle exam at the same time.

bak to mugging :)
last 2 papers or to be exact 3.
guess nobody will count in the one on 11/11/08.
Science mcq-.-
2 major in content papers on monday and tues.
SS, F&N respectively.
then i will be free!!
wahahaha. but 1 thing damn sad,
my maths paper 2,
i tink i am the worst guy ever to make those kind careless mistake.
2cm:1unit, i calculated it as 1cm:1unit.
then 2 marks plus standard deviation.
total worth of 5 marks.
haiz... but overall, it was nt a tough paper :)
shld haf a chance for A?

reminding me of Suona,
i haven been touching my instrument for the past 6 mths or so?
Kinda miss it. after exams, bak to lessons.

2008-10-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

一波未平，一波再起。
这一次与曾经的许多是佛会一样。
似乎不会吧，真希望是。
那些话突然似乎点醒了我。
一切的希望都已摆在我身上。
那堆动力正赶着我跑。
但一切又能支持多久呢。。。
做得到吗？

“加油”只是自己能对自己说的吗？

2008-10-24T15:12:00.002+08:00

half of my Os are completed.

left with the other half and its HEAVEN.

shall carry on mugging.

无聊的人把无聊当成一种乐趣.

无聊的推测在某种程度上是可以谅解.

但如果至少还有些理智与智慧,

再深度地去思考,加上环境证据,

便不会有如此荒谬的推测.

如果对得起天地良心...

怨的话, 怨不得任何人,

只是自己这盘棋下错罢了.

像挽救随时都来得及..

随时奉陪到底,

但去三思一切吧.

如果把无聊变成理智或许一切能有个终结...

2008-10-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

STARTS with the CAPITAL letter.

2008-10-22T00:31:00.002+08:00

exam days!
3 papers had passed! left with 7 papers.
chem, cs and eng were quite ok, at the least not veri hard.

JONES the GROCER!

mrs NG! thanks for your guidance since sec 1.

一切的原来都显示在眼前了.
原一切能就顺其自然，
但似乎已经不可能了。
最后的谢。

2008-10-07T03:48:00.002+08:00

隔着的距离实在是一望无景，
既然井水不犯河水，
请别干扰我们。
就让一切画上一个句号吧。
美好的或许会记得，
但实在不想有任何瓜葛。
当有必要把“结束”带进来时，
那便会是不择手段的时候。

期待的只是剩余的多少时间也好，
都是大家在一起拥有美好的回忆。

希望的也许越来越遥远，
但没到最后至少还有那么一细。
加油！

2008-10-01T07:15:00.002+08:00

解放：
曾说过你常做出一些
让人意想不到的事。
不愧是如此。
谢了！至少没枉费一切。

不能完全说我做到了，
但是至少有了点启发。
我已知道了。
就当作为了自己为了你为了大家，
我相信总有一天必定会找到那一把钥匙。
就算失败我也能自己爬起来继续寻找。
因为我是“王俊贺”永远都是我原来的自己。
再也不会有另一个我。
有你撑腰吗！:)
要爬到最顶峰的话，
只能靠自己。

朋友，不会再伤悲了。
天大的事，我会学着笑着去面对。
逃避将会消除在我字典里。
就算有一天分离以后，
我会记得我曾经只有过开心的日子。
因为大家，所以我必须站稳。
当那天我发现那闪耀的光就在我面前，
你就别小看我！
唯一只能再度的信任。
this time my calculator won't spoil.

2008-09-23T00:19:00.002+08:00

dan edited this pic. kinda nice huh?

it will be on screen someday:)
kinda long since i ever uploaded pic.

一段路走来，经过了悲欢离合。
所谓的有福同享，有难同当，
却影视在我们身上。
这一切得来不易，
但我相信在我们每一个人的心上都拥有对方。
回忆也将深深地烙印在我们心中。
谢谢你们，陪我走到这。
每个人新的旅程也即将开始。
不会忘记。。。

已经经全力在控制在压抑。
知道不可能，就算可能，
也一定坚持一直都是保持如此。
对不起，已经活在混乱里了，
似乎无法走出一切。
但是绝对不会让自己超越界限。
因为知道只有如此才是最好的。

2008-09-16T19:02:00.002+08:00

失败的感觉不好受，
只希望拼搏下去。
时间到时，自然会放手。
需要的只是信任。
让这短占的回忆成为最美好的。

一次就够。。

2008-09-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

school politics.
shall do my best to help,
just allow me to give it a shot.
i do noe that it might not be within my ability
but do believe me.
this period of time is jus too important.
even if it fails,
i shall contribute my time.
this is a promise to myself and to you.

失败并不代表什么，
能爬起来努力才了不起。
相信世间还是有人情。

2008-09-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

被唤醒的义-
占停了，希望无续。
或许不容易，
但至少能专心面对另一项挑战。

恶化时，毁字才会降临。
不毁也是为了赐给改过自新的机会。
但是一旦超越极限，
便无可饶恕。

只要过完这一刻。。。

2008-09-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

randomness count down to O levels
41 days!

收集：
逆天而行，或许奇迹会出现。
一个人抱着一思的希望，一份信任，
聚集一起，得来的是感动。

等待是最好的钥匙来解开一切。
骑得正坐得正，万物都不怕。
提心吊胆也因亏心，
兜兜转转结果也都是个输字。
因果报应，害人害己。
就算是棋子，也可能反咬一口。
肤浅，冲动，永远都是井底之蛙。
耐心必刀枪不入，
时机便是无敌。
瞧！

2008-09-02T21:59:00.002+08:00

super random nowadays.
kinda bored, so came up to post.
1 more mth to O levels!
how fast did time flies. umm..

happen to passby some stuff today
WAHAHAHA!
find these kinda nice.

绝对不容许挑拨离间。
一切都是虚假的！
这世界有天，但天外有天。
聪明反败聪明物，
也要自知自比。
许多都事事难料。
举手不回是象棋中一向所拥有的定律。
既然走错了，只能挽救并往前看。
才能赢得这部棋。
放手一博吧，这场并是一场重大的赌注。
但下定了!!!

2008-08-27T21:02:00.003+08:00

答案以揭晓了。
就怪自己笨，
但似乎也做个教训。
人心邪恶正摆在眼前，
偏要硬撞。

以承认自己有多失败。
算了。。
游戏即将开始。

2008-07-24T17:47:00.001+08:00

结束。

2008-07-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

12.7.08

这一次不知是获是失？
有时真的会觉得有点欣慰，
但却也会悲伤。
每日只能强颜欢笑，提心吊胆。
一直知道一切迟早会结束，
但却又害怕。
“结束”似乎不远，
越来越靠近时恐惧也不停的增加。

有时回头看看过去，
虽然时好时坏，
但真的宁愿过去的一切能够保留。
曾想过放弃，但不知是佛做得到或者舍得吗。
如果一切能视而不理不是好吗？
只能默默地把它往心里吞，
因为不想见到内疚于伤悲。

当一切结束时又会如何呢？

P.s.不是做的不好也不是做的不够，
只是自己无法承受。。。

2008-06-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

25.june.08

敏感

2008-06-23T18:17:00.002+08:00

23.jun.08

从来没有过的无奈
从来没有过的问号s
从来没有过的迷失
从来没有过的挣扎
从来没有过的悲伤
从来没有过的无助

这一切的“从来没有过” 一次过
涌往我来，真的快喘不过气来了。
也许是每件事的累计吧。
我不知道自己还能挣扎多久，真的好辛苦。
甚至一度有个自私的行为，去“回老家”。。。
我好像变得连自己也不认识的我？
好需要让自己喘口气。
真的觉得自己好脆弱好脆弱。
对不起大家就让我放肆一下吧。
许多事情之间做得到但，如今不知为何却让自己的情绪控制回了。
我真的不知道，
不知道不知道不知道不知道不知道
不知道不知道不知道。
我不知道！！！

2008-06-23T02:10:00.004+08:00

23.jun.08

the day school reopens!
what does it mean?
1st:everyone starts busy mugging
2nd:O level is drawing near
3rd:everyone is graduating :[

u guys shld be pondering why am i blogging at such hour huh?
Haha, simply just cant get into slp.
so decided to blog then mug till morning ba.

umm.. my blog seems to be always having EMO posts.
so is it this time.
just kept thinking alot of stuff.
its once again graduation but somehow its alot more depressing.
of cos nt cos cchy but the frens and teachers.
most ppl shld noe i hate the school but
eventually u will jus develop feelings for the school.

teachers like mrs sim
[ha surprisingly rite, but she is real gd]
she nvr fails to protect any cchygians,
believe me if u ever haf the chance to speak to her or simply
chatting with her,
[which many ppl do not wish to, cos seeing her=having troubles]
u will find her fun and loving..

next up is FYN! a real young teacher tat always
put her emotions at first place.
but she is quite unique teacher tat i haf met..
she will definitely drop tears during our graduation day,
haha i wish to see tat :]

mrs ng too, she is always nagging
tats her style of resulting us to listen to her.
she teach maths in a unique way so
anything around us, she can apply it using maths.
how well huh?!

then it will be mr tan?
always with his weird ideas resulted in me
interested in science.
use to hate science but after
4 years of teaching by him
science became my fav subject.
surprisingly huh!

miss tay L.c cannot be miss out too.
she really guide me alot for F&N.
if nt for her probably i wont score for F&N.
i still rmb when she use to teach me in sec1 & 2.
i always slept and din bother to do work.
then when i was in sec 3, she was like
"OMG! such a big change" face haha..
P.s. miss tay i wont disappoint u for F&N ha!

Mdm nora, use to be afraid of her when i was
in lower sec. kinda fierce! like a tiger or smth majestic.
but when she became my eng teacher,
i noticed tat she is actually quite a joker and
her lessons are very interesting too.
she's our level coordinator so she always check on our attire,
but she kinda always tries to close one eye.
its her job to check us sometimes so bo bian
must coordinate with her.
really interesting haha..

kinda long post huh, but dunno when i will
haf the time to blog this kind of post.
probably will be occupied by studies.
tmr probably will be slping in class so better mug first.
next will be to my bros and many other friends:]

let me start with bro first ba:
P.s. Dan: be honoured ok 3rd time write for u!
haha, although we are further apart but
hope u will tink for urself k.
open ure eyes BIG!
dun get cheat by others easily.
after we graduate, probably dun haf ppl like
me will counsel u. [bhb hehe]
it is advisable u choose u decide ure own future properly k.
u can do it! my phone will always be there for u haha.
u are always full of regrets i wan u to rmb this:
“做什么事都要想清楚是佛是自己想要的，
如果是就千万别后悔，因为后悔很难受。”

P.s. Xiang: pls ah dun always be obsess with grace ok!
haha, seriously grace shld be glad to haf
such a bf tat devotes to her so much.
if u even haf the idea to marry her [kinda early]
haf a stabilise and worthy work.
so in order to get to this study man!
3 mths nia earlier than me leh.
dun always haf tat idea of
"i NT leh" i gonna fuck u for tat. lols.
who says NT cant study, cant work better.
it jus a matter whether u are willing to work hard or not.
but i am really glad to haf such a gd bro like u:]
u changed alot! probably its gd but it can be bad.
u became understanding but seriously gave in too much haha.
but its alrite if u r willing to,
wish the both of u all the best man!
记得：“相信自己，别放弃自己，要不然没有人能帮你"

P.s. MR KAY H.S.: eh pls ah GROW UP!
u noe u r out of everyone of us the most CHILDISH!
haha, but kinda worry alot for u.
do things at the rite time k.
its really time for u to wake up,
dun wan u to regret in the future.
haf a target of wat u wan to do next time,
aim for tat, jus make sure u achieve it.
i can tell u when u achieved it,
u will notice tat happiness is smth u nvr had be4.
tat is cos u work hard for it.
rmb ure bartending?!
there is one thing i wan u to rmb.
“自己想要的，就要努力去争取
就算失败但至少自己有努力过。
跌倒了再爬起来。”

P.s.Qiang: u idiot, always with those foolish jokes.
almost like dan. SO LAME!
and always wit tat heck care attitude,
kinda jealous of it. wish i could haf tat attitude too,
haha impossible, me is still me.
u r always the one nt having any prob.
anything also play play,
but r/s this kind of thing dun keep playplay
in turn it will hurt u deeply in the future.
“做什么事要自己做的到才说，
所以自己要说得到也做得到”

P.s. Ah de: always occupied with ur BB.
its a gd thing afterall, its ure interest.
but after we leave do take care :]

P.s. Sunhui: u changed quite alot,
more and more direct speaking now.
but sometimes u shld really keep things to ureself k.
nt everyone can accept one.
“你呢应该自私点，别太讲义气，要不然你死也不知为何。
社会是很现实的”

tats all for my bros.. guys must really take care.
its really memorable with u guys.
but majority of u all shld really tink for urself.
believe me.. dun let urself be in disadvantage state.
thanks for everything guys...

next up the CLIQUE!!!
i still rmb u all ok, dun say i "no heart"
P.s. sihui: haha 6 years of friendship
just past so fast..
together in the same school for 6 years
see u till i am bored! haha, jk!!!
i am really glad i haf such a gd until cant gd friend
appear in my life.
but finally we will be going diff schools i guess?
cos ures is poly but i haf to aim for a jc -.-
dun tink i will be use to u nt giving
me attitude in the future.
haha. i appreciate everithing u haf done.
thanks really a BIG THANK YOU!
seriously to me, u r a the besta besta friend!!!
probably will be seeing u
as a office lady or tai tai next time?
thanks for everithing :]
my phone will also be there for u!!! if u require
any help? haha..

P.s. Jiayan: hey miss wu!
u r usually the one counselling me while i counsel others.
thanks for ure ears for this few years.
although u do gif me attitude sometimes!!!
haha, afterall, u r always of a gd help for me.
thanks man!
probably in the future u will also be like sihui be
tai tai huh?! or one day i will see u on tv?!?!
better be in TVB its better haha.
the next charmaine sheh.
but just rmb dun lose to ure emotions,
which i always do but its still advisable nt to k..
cos the one hurt most will be us.

P.s. Ah mah TEO: oi ah mah!
wats wrong wit big head ah..
all cos of u spread until i tink whole school noe.
so paiseh can.. idiot.
umm, rmb how we get to noe ea other during
the 1st day of sec 1?
haha, how interesting huh?
but seriously it wldnt be as fun without
ure laughter. u noe i always laugh
when i saw ure idiotic face WAHAHAHA!
even now i tink of it i felt like laughing.
Thanks for the laughter and care u brought!!!
:seriously u are very glamorous with dress!
haha..

P.s. Rene: u another one!
always wit tat "act cool" attitude haha.
but u shld brush up on ure jokes,
cos whenever u say a joke.
the interesting thing is tat we laugh at u
not the joke haha.
maybe can see ure name on the top 10
scorers in our school's o level chart
next year.
working really hard huh?
but dun stress urself too much,
if nt someone will sad one haha..
take care !

P.s. Crystal: OI! another "jester"
so obsess wit ure korean and jap
singers.. dun nid study ah!
u r always the kind one,
do u even get angry be4?
they always scold me for no reason,
but u dun seems to haha!
tats y crystal is always the best rite?!?!?!?
haha, thanks for the fun u haf brought for these years.
do take care of urself! mug hard!

P.s. Yvonne: our expected brightest star
in the clique. u do noe u haf the brightest future
out of everyone in the clique!
work hard for ure dreams man,
u can do it.
if i still survive in the CO "society",
10 years down the road,
i wish to see DR. TAY haha.
u noe every single one of us
is very proud of u!
so yvonne tay JIAYOU!
thanks for the care and concern
u gave :]

thats all with the CLIQUE. i am really
glad tat u guys appeared in my life..
those memorable times, it was really fun wit u guys.
really take care and STUDY HARD.
soar well together k!

Next:
P.s. Amanda: manda!!!
6 years of friendship too, u kinda
always understand me and also help
me alot for this past 6 years.
i really appreciate it.
but hey! get a new guy soon!
and pls ah dun always put ureself
at disadvantage can.. be selfish
its alrite one, dun let ppl cross over ure limits.
THANKS MANDA!!!!!
lots of thank you..

P.s. Grace: hey gal, u always respect me
cos i'm a long long friend of ures too haha.
tats y i tell u things very directly.
有时放下了何尝不是件好事？
给自己多点时间去了解一切。
u r alot more effective than me
so y nt make ureself useful.
encourage xiang to work hard.
haha.. take care..
thanks alot!

P.s. Ruting: U! another emotional one,
but same as me la nt bad haha!
for you i feel tat u must really
haf ure own stand, and hold on to it if
u tink its rite. i noe many things happen
but sometimes u shld choose
a way tat cld let u feel better..
ruting ah!!! u can do it!
thanks for being my EX ah haha!
for the past 4 years really thanks alot.

P.s. Miss yim: hey some stuff
are wat u are gonna face alot in the future.
dun make urself breakdown!
u always cheer ppl one also rite:]
so cheer urself up.
get over it, a new life begins.
take care and thanks :]

P.s. ying: hey ah bu!!!
being my ah bu so long not bad,
filial enough hor..
:i wish tat i gt a lao pei..
haha, anyway thanks for
ure care all the time..
the time u contribute to listen to me previously.
every single time u try to
help me..
thanks :]

Ladies, thanks for everything all this while.
the care and concern are appreciated.

P.s. CKC: its jus too much of confusion in me.
its my fault.. everything jus lies in me.
i'm sry.. i'm jus.. lost. but
i seriously cherish u alot..

like some kind of thanking speech.
but afterall i haf thank finish.
really thanks for everything!!!
things wld be diff without anyone of u.
Hope u all haf a bright future!!!
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

2008-06-22T14:46:00.001+08:00

对不起，因为珍惜所以无法接受。
即将发生的一切，绝对不是我想要的。
但可能对彼此都好吧？

2008-06-14T01:01:00.003+08:00

14.6.08
THOUSAND of years since i blogged.
was bored so came to blog.

umm. a big event recently was
simply Kelly's b'day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM!!!
he was kinda touch when he gt his present.
anyway jus wished tat he had enjoyed,
since he seldom celebrates his b'day. :]

saw this thing in jiayan blog,
saw my NAME too... haha
HERE GOES.....

Name 20 people you can think of right now,
Dont read the questions until you have named th 20 people.

1.Ben
2.Daniel
3.Sihui
4.Kelly
5.Michelle
6.Qiang
7.Crystal
8.Jiayan
9.Serene
10.Amelia
11.Yvonne
12.Ruting
13.Benedict
14.Yoke Ting
15.Amanda
16.Zixiang
17.Hanseong
18.Grace
19.Joey
20.Minhui

How did you meet 14?
Sec 1, she seems to be hanging out with
shien for a period time?

What would you do if you never met 1?
I WILL DIE, haha!!! a important friend i cant lose.

What if 9 & 20 dated?
Firstly, they do not know each other.
Secondly, unless they are LES.
Thirdly, BEN WILL KILL NANA.

Would 6 & 17 date?
HA! grace will kill qiang, they are not gays i guess.

Describe 3.
the unforgettable rabbit, knew her for 6 years?
were gd friends, she's a nice gal i suppose if she doesnt
reveal her VIOLENCE to the others.

Is 8 attractive?
In her dreams? haha, jk.
umm, she is indeed quite attractive at times.

Describe 7.
She is always in her jap and kor CRAZE.
quite a joker but she is nice and caring.
the CLIQUE is always nice EXCEPT CKC:]

Know any of 12's family members?
i suppose not -.- her mother almost killed her when we
were together LOLS!!!

What would you do if 18 confessed his/her love to you?
:" i do not wish to add on to SQUARE love or become QUADRAPLETS"

What language does 15 speak?
Chinese, english and hokkien

Who is 9 going out with?
!!!! CKC would wish to go out with her ^.^

How old is 16?
15 years old, yet his b'day

When is the last time you spoke to 13?
simply YST!!!

Who is 2's favourite band/singer?
i rmb! last time was 5566, now english songs
[i am not familiar with it]

Would you ever date 4?
Oh, sure MICHELLE dun mind hor? LOLS

Would you ever date 1?
we are TOGETHER already
we see each other everyday
so does it consider dating?

Is 19 single?
yea, i suppose?

What is 10's last name?
TEO JIE QI! she loves it.

Would you ever be in a rls w 11?
NVR possible, she is always occupied
with her GUZHENG.

3's school?
Chung Cheng High Yishun.

Where does 6 live?
MARSILING.

What's ure favourite thing abt 5?
She's the STRONGEST gal i ever seen.
[Mentally not physically]

Have you seen 2 naked?
OH YEA!!! we bath together lots of time ^.^

5 people to do this quiz:
-BEN
-Hanseong
-Joey
-Michelle
-NANA

THERE ends..
SEE YAAAA!!!

2008-05-21T20:59:00.005+08:00

21 May 08

it has been so long since i blogged.
return back for some random post.
have been so bored of studying,
BO BIAN AH!!!
These days have happened alot of stuff,
probably just within 1-2 mths but its like so many years.

RANDOM PICS:

the SONY ECRISSON GANG.
Plenty of ppl using SE now. its so common lols.

These were what we are doing when we are bored:

can u imagine? thats a lizard and FROG!!!
the sicko benjamin CHEAH did this to them.
having XXX!
how wonderful.

the frog was basically clinging on the lizard,
not letting go.

Frog killed alive in the hot wax and harden.
new specimen.

Ben did this to the frog again.
splitting its leg! like wth.
his is a SICKO!

Days passes fast, secondary school life is gonna end.
haiz its sad but it is still part and parcel of life.
these memories are always in my mind.
Especially to my 2 other bros:

P.s. Dan: although we seems to be getting further apart,
but i will rmb u this "lamer"!
it is probably hard for us to get over that thing
but what has become a fact can nvr change.
time will heal everything, thats what i believe.
even if anything happens, both of us will still be there for u.
i would also wish that time can turn back,
even though its impossible but a good change can always
make things better.
u know we share things together alot,
it is seriously very comfortable and to be with you.
just rmb there are many things that you cant see
in the outside world.
humans can be good or bad,
just dun trust or rely too much on others. :]

P.s. CKC: look at ure jiao bin below, i bet u wont
believe thats u BUT obviously that nose of ures is outstanding.
hehe. i know i always suan siao u la,
if i too much must tell me la.
u noe we always quarrel alot of times,
but ppl do noe we get well fast.
too bad la, who ask me too emotional-.-
always bui tong.
what happen last few days, u shld noe i am
actually quite heart pain to see u in this state,
but u idiot always act like nth happen.
WHAT ARE U TRYING TO DO!
and i am super du lan abt that thing,
after so many first time has been devoted to you.
i bet my next first time is to revenge for u.
surprisingly that word came out of me huh?
but i swear i will cos i simply cant stand letting him do this to u.
HIS A BASTARD!

just rmb the 2 major promises u make to me,
its simple but important.
dun make me disappointed cox u shld know
how i will change.
pls just dun be too obsess with that thing,
it has been 2-3 years since u ever done tat.
nvr do tat again!
somehow i sound like ure mother nagging at u all the time,
but this friend is just too important.
how mushy.. argh -.-
nvm but ya some things are difficult to say out of mouth,
put in words is better.
STUDY!!! dun work too hard.
its ure last year and u r working -.-
stressing urself up..

there's a nvr ending full stop for all these things...

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2008-04-29T20:42:00.004+08:00

29.4.08

celebrated hanseong's b'day in advance last saturday.
we went to sakura and had a movie
-Hansel and gratel
its kinda STUPID show that
promotes violence among KIDS!
however, its PG.
overall it was quite alrite, kinda expected ending.

junhe's "philosophy":
life is always so unexpected.
small little things done can mean alot.
what is experienced now is simply sadness after sadness.
the fact tat the world is unfair,
makes life so meaningless.
happy moments could happen but
the sad ones occupy the majority of life.
nobody likes trouble but trouble seems to
come up to u, knocking on ure door.
theoretically, biasness and jealousy do kills.
no one is able to accept these killers.
many tends to be affected, even power seduces humans nature.
does being in power meant alot?
probably even more important than the ppl around us?
being the emotional one, the above factors do
affects these ppl alot?

a new environment may result in a new you,
but probably the old environment suits yourself better?
the change in one's old self and new self can differ greatly.
different self may have different
and even better personality.

many things simply flash across my mind recently.
have i made a wrong choice?
IN many stuff.
i have been asking myself,
why do i haf to allow myself to suffer in several problems.
I had a contradicting feeling,
i felt both joyful and depress.
problems just kept coming on and on.
i regretted but i haf to cherish,
too much emotions were put into.
i see happiness in it but was depress over it.
i just can't do anything, helpless.

the most important stuffs in life.
i lost it, and on the verge of losing another.
lots of efforts were put in,
but if disappoint is what all i get
i guess it just all ends here.

2008-04-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

20.4.08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING!!!
may u enjoy ure day :]
some random photos haha
find myself din upload pics for a long time.

p.s. 建丰：
我可以告诉你，你实在令我们太失望．
我曾经觉得你可能还会想，
但现在摆在眼前的事实，让我知道我看错人了．
你知道你自己家里的情况，但却一意孤行．
当我知道这一切的那一刻，我已经放弃你了．
往日的日子要怎么走，你自己决定．
做事情请想想自己身边的人，别太自私．
当你踏出这一步的时候，
你应该知道后果会如何．
未来是你自己去争取的，绝对不会从天而降．
你没努力过，又为何提早决定自己的生死呢？
我们旁观者只能提出劝告，
不能比逼你改变想法也不会想去逼你．
选择只在你的掌握中．
我不会再多说．
当我绝望时，也就是我放弃你的时候．

2008-04-06T05:17:00.002+08:00

好无聊哦！！
有时候，真的无法控制自己的情绪。
但想一想后，还是觉得为何要自寻烦恼呢？
不如过自己快乐的生活算了。
绝望加绝望等于超绝望！：]
终于体会到很多事是自己无法控制的，
大不如让一切顺起自然。

发现自己得到的是不断的借口。
真的好想好想让自己松懈一下，
让一切烦恼消失。
我好想放弃一切，让自己好过点。
一向来对待每件事的我，都不会后悔。
但最近却开始后悔了。
只能怪自己投入太多感情吧。
突然觉得音乐是唯一能让我忘掉烦恼的。

最近的 syf 也让我回想起曾经的一切。
永青实在太多回忆了。
如果时间能倒流。。。

sudden emo-ness lols.

2008-04-02T21:39:00.002+08:00

2.4.08

OMG!!!!
damn sucky.
felt so unfair for evg.
they got GOLD without honours.
LIKE WTF!!!!
the judges are deaf or smth.
their performance on that day was fantastic la.
better then previously.
can't imagine wat are the judges thinking.
damn strict this year.

there is simply 1 school i felt tat
they shldnt get honours.
not really kind to say it out.
but seriously felt so sad for them.
miss teh actually cried with them today in school.
When she told them the results this morning.
i din expect them to cry actually,
din noe they have such commitment towards EVPSCO.
nvm its a motivation for them too.
they will get bak the honours we once had be4.
SENIORS!!! we will give them our best support :]

basically
Catholic [Primary]
Rosyth school
Ngee Ann
Pei chun
Kong Hwa
got Gold with honours.

加油永青！！！

2008-03-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

16.5.08

finally i am here to blog once again.
like after so long.
but a sad post is coming along...
last day of holiday,
school reopen i will be seriously stress like siao.
haiz.

this question has been bothering me recently.
what is life all about?
finally came to a conclusion after all these happenings.
its simply disappointments and sadness.

"seriously i dun heck care whether u see this or not.
its not the first post for u either.
if those words u said comes out so simply
from ure mouth,
then i believe how simply is tat to you.

i will simply repeat myself,
everything is not for granted,
dun take ppl help for granted.
dun tell me crap that u dun nid others to help
and u do not appreciate it.
but now i see no reason to care abt you,
after u said those inhuman stuff.
if u wanna die,
wanna be some kind of bloody ah beng
then so be it.
those life suits u anyway?
we are not those ppl u tink who can
always make troubles with you,
u can simply leave us.
dun wanna study u can also quit school,
now no one will give a damn abt it.
always talking bad abt others
have u ever think what u have done?
u said i always think that i am right,
din ya?
i din apologise when i am in the wrong?
R U SURE?

talk logically not with all of ure
twisted logic and vulgarities.
u simply pissed me off.
if all u noe are vulgarities,
then dun talk to me
until u get ure logic and facts right.
SHIT YA!!!!"

2008-02-28T17:53:00.002+08:00

28 Feb 08

3 days of being a 16 teen WAHAHA.
anyway its simply FUCKED up abt that
damn police case -.-
basically mrs sim talked to my parents.
din noe wat they say, but
WATEVA.
nagging all the way lols.
my dad is kinda weird nag me in school like a DEVIL,
then in the car like ANGEL nagging.

seriously what i hate abt the teachers is that
they simply talk rubbish abt my friends and bros
infront of my parents. ARGH!
especially CKC, dunno wat the hell they are thinking.
they are my friends MAN!
i choose who i wan to be,
and i noe what i'm doing.
i ain't that stupid enough to do all those stupid stuff,
except this time.

the most ridiculous thing is that,
MAJORITY of the teachers tinks that CKC and me are GAYS!
i would like to clearly state that
WE ARE NOT!!!!
just too good bros :]
i will be bored in class without him la.

and kenneth ng do noe we DISLIKE him haha.
glad that he notice that or rather
i tink the DM told him.
anyway mrs sim was kinda funny haha.
i'm always running away frm her jus cos of my hair.
but just feel kinda good talking to her.
i rmb kenneth ng said to me this just now:
"ure nature is not bad, but u mix with the wrong company"
too bad! i can be kind to anyone except U!

anyway i got my CT results.
kinda satisfied with it.
especially my F&N paper :]
43/50. WAHAHA.
science not bad too.
physics- 21/25
chem-17/25
din get back elec geog but
at least i passed my SS
6/12. [so lucky even though i din]
finish my paper.
maths - 28/45
language was to most suckiest ever -.-
eng 11/25
chi 32/50
SUCK MAN!
anyway overall still acceptable :]

PICS of the CLIQUE's present.
how nice :]
thx for the shirt too :]
and the CUPCAKE by banana.
THANKS ALOT..

P.S. ben: sry abt wat my parents tink abt you
actually it really doesn't matter.
my father is just "influence"
by the damn teachers.
at the least i noe u haf changed.
actually u did not touch tat ah neh,
but kinda sry for you for being involve in all
this damn stuff.
anyway i believe the 3 of us brotherhood
will not be affected by others.

时间飞腾，
好想乘这几个月好好珍惜
与你们在一起的每一分每一秒。
今年与你们每一个人庆祝的生日，
不只无比的快乐
也将烙印在我心上。

2008-02-25T22:41:00.011+08:00

25 Feb 08

officially 16!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!! :]
kinda "zi bi"
Anyway seriously was kinda expecting this year Birthday.
it turns out well actually.
Firstly, i celebrated with my Brothers and a handful of gals
on saturday.
we went to sentosa in the morning
and had LOTSA fun.
swimming, volleyballing, "monkeying",
frizz be [ no idea of the spelling hehe]
nite time, we met up the 4 gals -
qiaohui, ruting, yoketing, amanda; hanseong and desmond
we went to secret receipe for dinner,
the food there was kinda nice actually.
they got me a surprise little blueberry cheese cake,
i fed everyone one mouth EXCEPT ruting and qiang.
keep wanting to get a nice looking pic while feeding them :]
After that, we basically slack at the roof terrace at vivo.
some stuff jus happened and had to help to provide COUNSELLING
and solving the problem.
anyway problems were solved and BACK TO normal.

AND TODAY's FINALE....
the CLIQUE'
we went for sakae to eat,
seriously full like hell.
no idea why melia and ben are still
hungry at this moment.
7 of us squeezed in this table that is suppose to be for 4 people.
after dinner, we went for some
neoprints session as usual for CLIQUE's celebration.
the pics were kinda nice but cannot post here :[
nvm. after which we went to catch a movie,
suppose to be L changes the world but
half of them watched it so we had decided to watch
P.S. I LOVE YOU[ pang sai i love you lols thats what we call it]
Then serene returns home cos she wasn't interested
in these movies ? guess so ..
that 2HR movie seriously was kinda bored haha,
can't believe jiayan and crystal cried-.-
it was BORING can lols.
the storyline kinda like jump here and there.
and ben spent $7.50 jus to slp for half of the movie
in the theatre.
then home sweet home and now i'm blogging.

P.S the CLIQUE' -
thanks for the present peeps!
i LOVE it haha.
thanks for celebrating my official 16th
birthday with me.
i seriously wished that we will
always be how we are before :]
u peeps contributes a major part in my life.
THANKS once again.

P.S BROS
Thanks guys, for celebrating with me.
i seriously had alot of fun
with you guys too.
Although some stuffs happened,
but it ended well :]
its our last year in CCHY,
lets make full use of the time we have together.

P.S Thanks for everyone's birthday wishes, msg and presents.
i really apprreciate it.

这一切可能已成了“过去“
但种种的快乐便将会牢记在我心了。
而这些回忆，
将让我在未来的日子
感受回每一丝笑容与快乐。
时间不会停止，
但因为珍惜之间的友谊，
才让我回想起你们。
朋友，谢谢你们。。。

2008-02-24T22:05:00.002+08:00

24 Feb 2008

COUNTDOWN 2 hours to my BIRTHDAY!
YEA!! i'm gonna be officially 16 soon.
after so long since i blogged.
gonna blog on my b'day celebrations tml:]

因为种种得面对的难关，
才使爱情更值得珍惜。。。

2008-01-24T20:24:00.000+08:00

二零零八年，一月二十四日，
“雨”天。

一天既然发生了那么多事。
以下的几句话请别笑！
出于真心的 ok!
其实我真的没有想到。
完全不在我想象中。
但是我想说谢谢你当我为兄弟，
因为有你我的生活便更精彩，
但是！也有烦恼。
那份让我惊讶的感动，
所以执导我也“下雨”。
因为如此让我更相信真正的友谊。
谢谢啦！
在讲下去就很肉麻，
人家更加以为我们是同性恋。
-.- 受不了那些人 lols.

anyway the O levels result was out today.
it was kinda tense up scenario.
unexpectedly the top student was frm CO.
7 pts omg, jus seems so impossible for me to get.
their results wasn't bad afterall.
but there were some who flunk,
which make it seems like O levels
doesn't seems easy.
Sudden motivation to study.
i can't imagine the same scene next year.
just haf buck up,
seriously dun wish to flunk.
wish me luck! :]
and..
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
to all who haf done well for Os.

2008-01-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

Spring cleaning DAY!
20 Jan 08

HAPPY B'DAY MUMMY!!!

its my mum's b'day today.
my dad brought us to sembawang Yatch Club
yst to eat.[ including my niece cum daughter]
the view was kinda nice.
cos the whole restaurant is facing the sea.
and malaysia is like so near.
my sis and i got a perfume for her,
it cost me a bomb!

ben, qiang and dan helped me in
cleaning my whole house today
and some painting job.
from morning until 8pm.
super tired but kinda fun haha.
anyway THANKS guys.
好兄弟 :]

p.s. jiayan sry tat i din go see those HK stars wit u today.
i cannot leave the guys at home.
u shld be happy tat u saw ure boyfriend huh?
lols. show the pictures someday if u haf any.

my niece went bak home.
its kinda sad to see her skin to be infected so seriously.
haiz. her parents seriously make her suffer.
no choice, who ask them to be her parents.
how evil not to brg her to the hospital.
they just can't think of the consequences.
jus cos of money they can sacrifice
their daughter's skin.
She seems very happy wit us then them.
should be so cos she lived in my hse
for 2 years since her birth.

世间上的残忍，
叫人无法忍耐。
无辜的小孩被带到世界上，
却还要那么痛苦。
这还能怪谁，
不就是无脑的年轻夫妇吗？

2008-01-18T23:12:00.001+08:00

the 'LAST' year memories,

18 Jan 08

Happy belated birthday YVONNE!
happy b'day to Jasper and Tessa Too.

my blog is like so damn ancient.
i suppose this is my first post for the year 2008.
Actually was kinda busy wit all those work in school.
must cope for 'O' levels and Competition.
OMG! just feel so stress up abit now.
rushing for 2 coursework.
SHIT year man.
just hope to pass the year fast and
perform well for both academic and competition.

Basically, these days simply happen lotsa stuff.
its hard to explain.
dunno how much i am gonna trouble about again.
可能现在的我还比你们受害者更烦更难受。
However, being last year in secondary sch life.
i seriously dunno wat will happen in the future.
i am simply afraid to imagine.
its hard to leave the friends that have been together
for the whole Sec school life。
everyone will be going for their dreams.
1 year may seems long now,
but somehow its still kinda short.
anyway it seems like i am contradicting.
lols by saying i wish tat the year will pass fast.
oh well nvm.

对这一切的一切，
已尽了力了。
之后的一切只能让时间慢慢化解。
都是自己在心里很重要的人，
所以已不知该如何。
失去已成为一种恐惧，
所以我珍惜。
只希望能够开心地在一起。。。

me and Yvonne the b'day gal

i miss my 'daughter'

me and hui[she is wearing a DRESS]
Bros :]

melia, hui and me [ melia is wearing
a dress the 1st time]

the CLIQUE' happy
b'day YVONNE

2007-12-15T18:58:00.000+08:00

Happy Moments

9/12/07 - 11/12/07

finally here to blog on SYCO's Chalet.

at my family Chalet currently.

TOO BORED, so i decided to blog.

3 days of tiredness but LOTSA FUN!

Basically the few of us,

ME, Joel, Banana, Zhiwen, Wanying, Zixin, Peiqian, Stella and Jessly

wasn't at the chalet for most of the time!

Went out to changi airport to slack for the first day.

return bak to the chalet in the morning.

the next day GUESS WAT!

the whole chalet is like OURS.

most of them went back.

Had a Nite Movie,

GOLDEN COMPASS.

Seriously i love that show alot.

its DAMN nice.

Got bak to chalet after the movie.

everyone crowd together to share some Creepy Ghost stories.

and THANKS to JOEL for scaring me ALOT OF TIMES.

Banana do u have to treat me like a rabbit LOLS!

Zhiwen that envelop thing was SUPER scary.

then next day went back home.

I was damn tired so i went to sleep.

SY ROCKS!

i will rmb u guys!

next outing COUNT DOWN. RMB!!!

the BANANAS
Jessly and Me with Junyuan

[Junyuan u seriously like to be CALEFARE]
Banana,M.J,ElloEllo,Stella and ME
At the Airport.

Unglam,Me and Joel Falling asleep at mac

at the Airport.

Sleeping so soundly.

me and zixin slping beside joel

Zhiwen,Joel,ME and minhui
THE bbq on the first day.
Joel and mE!
We were playing at White Sands Shopping mall

in the middle of the nite

END OF SY FUN DAY!!!

After SYco Chalet was Co camp.

kinda practice alot during Co camp.

no idea why but jus retarded.

gonna blog again abt co camp after i gt the PICs.

Seriously PISSED off wit an idiot today.

WTF! do all u wan, i wont give it a damn anymore.

i dun give a damn whether u see this or not.

but please tink over wat u have done.

if u simply treat me some kind of person that u can

control or BOMBING me around then FUCK OFF!

dun tell off others if u are not able to do it

u seriously pissed me off alot this holiday.

WAT A SPOILER.

Spoil my mood for the whole holiday.
ARGH! BASTARD.

no comments.

TIME just FLIES!

2007-12-02T12:29:00.000+08:00

无聊无聊还是无聊。

here to upload the pics during crystal's b'day.
y does most of the chalets falls on dec?
if some are on nov, i won't be so bored.

有些人真的是过分过分加过分。
无耻，无赖，简直是奸人！！！
如果现在有把刀，那那把刀一定会在你们身上。
气死人了！！！
他妈的你们死了更好。
yao qin DAI SAI!!!

at KBox!!! smiles :]

Crys- make a wish!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

the Clique loves CRYSTAL!

2007-11-23T10:47:00.000+08:00

无奈的日子，晴
23.11.07

happy HAPPY B'day to
CRYSTAL!!!

din get any pics on tat celebration frm sihui yet.
COS she is in TAIWAN.
taking aeroplane 4 times a year![as in bak and fro]
so SHUANG lar.
anyway, tat day morning was a unpleasant start for me.
was seriously angry.
then sihui came to meet me to help choose my
new pair of glasses.
FINALLY got a new pair of glasses.
its kinda nice.

Then we met up jiayan,melia and CRYS!
stop by at orchard, but din haf much thing to do.
and it jus happened tat the 5 of us sings.
so we went to KBOX. :]
Yvonne came wit her Bf 'RATON'[is tat how its spelled?]
asked some stupid qns.
EVIL YVONNE!
then she ran away.

serene and ben came to meet us at nite
for dinner at
MAHATTAN FISH MARKET,
at plaza singapura.
the food are kinda delicious.
got a small choc fudge cake for CRYS.
then HOME sweet HOME.

will be updating on the pics after hui comes bak.

p.m. to crys : its ure b'day finally.
2nd last of the clique!
once again may all ure wishes come true.
the clique will be there for you if anything happens.
hope u had a FUN day that day.
stay happy!

有时候事情是自己做得到的.
只是看自己愿不愿意用心去做到,
或则是选择不去做.

这个世界充满了许多矛盾以及疑惑.
一个人在别人眼里,似乎像只笔.
当笔的水墨被用完时,
其实水墨能换装新的,
但却选择丢掉.
因为那只笔的利用价值在表面上是完了.
但却有可能比别的笔更有价值.

爸曾经对我说过.
在这社会上, 每个人都是被利用来利用去.
似乎没真正的友谊在里.
一直不愿相信这句话的我,
现在也慢慢屈服了.

现在的我已经开始绝望了...

2007-11-17T23:33:00.000+08:00

无聊及极度地气愤的日子
17 nov 07

the urge to blog.
will be updating on the next coming CLIQUE event.
CRYSTAL's B'dae.
like finally, there is an activity where i can go out and PLAY.
at least alot better than these weeks.
its simply such a suffer.
other than some family conflict,
trouble just keep coming to me.
just cant stand it, i am gonna burst.
ARGH!
dun even haf the mood to do hmwrk now.

原来自己似乎只是一个利用品.
原来做为所为的"_ _ " 只是这样子.
原来利用完后就这样子丢在一旁。
比起来那只昆虫还比你好更多吧。
至少他不会这样子对我。
有多少钱有个屁用。
拜托你们做任何事情想想我的感受。
如果随便一个理由就能打发我走，
那对不起我也没那么笨。
而你呢，也是另一个觉得我是让你随便呼唤，
我在这世上不是让你在我面前摆着那个脸。
做错的话别每次都把罪推到别人身上，
怎样都要把所谓的'_ _ '拖下水才甘愿．
真不知道这世上有没有真正的友谊．
似乎已经被淡化掉了．

2007-10-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

无聊的日子，雨天

it has been raining alot lately.
can't do much thing while raining eh.
kinda bored these days too.
went to school and there were no lessons.
stay at home nth to do.
BORED TO DEATH!
basically i known most of the papers result.
failed 2 papers but some papers just passed at border line.
one gal in my class happen to retain.
haiz, she is simply .....
anyway she is crazy,
dun tink much ppl care abt her.

holidaes coming,
gonna go crazy shopping and play.
how i wish i can go overseas!
gonna chiong dramas too.
finished X-family todae, 55 ep.
kinda lame ending, almost the same as 终极一班.
watching 爱情自游式 now.
its nice!
current blog song is one of its soundtrack.

have been troubling over whether
to enter JCs, Poly or Nafa.
although there is still 1 year more to go,
but think i shld realli tink now.
COMPLICATED LIFE.

未来是在自己的掌控下，
没人能为自己决定．

2007-10-18T18:01:00.000+08:00

嗨。。。
为什么你想事情还是如此肤浅呢?
该做的我都做了，该说得也说了。
因为这份友谊值得珍惜，
所以才做了这一切。
但你却觉得不过如此。
如果你真的觉得我对这份友谊毫无保留，
那我也不知如何。
整件事我不否认是因我而起，
但责任竟完全推在我身上。。。

2007-10-16T20:58:00.000+08:00

days wit clique, 16 oct 07

here to BLOG!
kinda heard a shocking news this morning.
basically its a death of a same pri to sec schoolmate's dad.
he simply died of heart attack in the early morning suddenly.
somehow when i heard this news,
lots of stuff just appeared in my mind.
i was tinking tat

'life is actually so fragile,
it just come and go without a word.
although everione will just go one day,
but i was afraid tat someone around mi,
family and good friends and pals,
will simply just leave this world.
suddenly i just felt tat i shld realli
cherish everione around mi.
i dun wish to regret only when these ppl
were to leave the world one day.
somehow..
i just LOVE my friends and family!
we shld realli cherish each moment we have wit each other..'

ok bak to todae, the clique- melia, sihui, crystal and ben.
they came to my hse todae and slack and PLAY!
crystal was watching her K drama.
the remaining played mahjong.
this was the 1st time i ever play mahjong.
kinda fun and nice to play.
thx BEN for teaching ah :].
but somehow still CONFUSE.
had spaghetti for lunch.
all, except ben, helped in the cooking of our
delicious spaghetti and soup.
after mahjong had a crazy pillow fite.
then everione was exhausted and
tat ended our day.

once again CLIQUE,
i LOVE YOU GUYS MAN!
wahahaha..

生命说长也不长，
说短也不短。
珍惜眼前所有的一切，
别等到将来失去了就后悔莫及。

2007-10-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

days wit clique, 12 oct 07

EXAMS FINALLY OVER!!!
gonna go crazy.
anyway gd luck for the sec 4s coming Os.
time flies man.
next year its my turn to STRESS like hell.

early in the morning, i was too happy lols.
rite after physics paper i was like PHEW!
and then everione went home and change.
met up for our singing session, at AMK kbox.
5 of us, sihui melia jiayan crystal and mi!
kinda sang quite alot, like for 5 hrs?
was damn fun.
then met up wit ben and daniel at esplanade.
saw peiqian and yingying on the way there.
slack wit the 2 guys.
seriously its real SLACKING.
cant believe wat we did!
photo taking and screaming around at the merlion like crazy.
and the photo taking was horrible.
we seriously done some terrible stuff during photo taking.
HOWEVER! i am not gonna post :]
slack for a few hrs and they came over to my hse.
had a crazy nite wit them and i was damn tired.
then to lalaland.

this wasn't the horrible stuff we did :]

有许多东西，已经比以前更珍惜。
因为自己不能想象失去后会怎样，
也不想让它发生。。

时间飞奔得那么快，只想停留在这段时间，
享受这一切。。

2007-10-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

I AM DYING !!!
DAMN HELL EOY!!!

2 more papers and its OVER!!!
it was a hard time trying to pass this few days!
kinda bored of studying my chemistry now.
so came to blog some JUNK.
and chemistry i cannot even UNDERSTAND at all.
like WTH bet i will fail.
maths was horrible
english- passage A was like " u will feel like tearing the paper"
ss was WTF. not enough time.
geog was like i UNDERSTAND wat it is asking man.
F&N was haha kinda alrite.

2more papers..
GOOD LUCK PEEPS.

2007-09-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

super Happy Belated B'dae
MELIA!!!
days wit CLIQUE,第五天,晴天

it has been weeks and i am finally updating.
kinda bored so came up to blog.
had a BBQ celebration for ah mah MELIA.
she is finally 15!

during the celebration actually had some difficulty setting up
the bbq fire thingy.
the fire was up like 8+ almost 9.
but we still had FUN.
played alot and make a mess around.
then home sweet home at kinda late hour.

ps: although is kinda late to blog and tell u my wishes for ya.
MUST do good for ure END YEAR exam ah.
GOOD LUCK to u, may my luck pass to u lols!
thx for all ure jokes for us,
u brought lots of laughter for us!
and yup HAPPY belated B'DAE!

the CLIQUE'

CHEERS!

OMG! melia u seriously do look like a ghost..

不否认自己的错误，
但请也检讨一下。

如果能更了解。。

2007-09-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

Days wit SY'07, 最后一天，晴天
9.8.07

SY'07 GOGOGO!
it was our final concert for the year.
Beautiful Sunday was a SUCCESS.
Lotsa people came to watch.
the whole esplanade concert hall was full of ppl,
WAHAHAHA!, maybe coz its free?
or rather we are rather renowned.

its oso KU's last time wit us,
he is LEAVING! bak to his TAIWAN to find his
北京烤鸭.
shld it be sad or happi ?
neither bah, kinda average feeling.
Peiqian represented us and got him a Pen holder
and it cost us $120.
he shld be happi we din buy any bulky stuff.

somehow during the concert,
闹春 was rather good.
better than usual coz of .....
kinda evil.
Overall was NICE!!!!

after concert, we peeps went to SUBWAY
to have some bites.
chit chat here and there.
some NON-performer SY members
came to support us too.
and most of them were seriously mugging hard.
cox of PRELIM.
and next year is my TURN.
JIA ＬＡＴ AH

the RUANNERS and GLAM mi :]

SY PEEPS'

"LOOK HERE"

YEAYEAYEA!!
SYCO'07 音乐会到此结束...

每件事都有始有终,
既然来到了终点,
让美好的回忆烙印在心里面...

2007-09-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

Days wit Clique, 第三与第四天，半雨半晴
31.8.07 , 5.9.07

last fridae, din went to school :]
around evening time met up wit the Clique
to have dinner at PASTAMANIA.
then rush off to President Star Challenge Charity Concert.
it was kinda nice.
jus went there to support yvonne the PRO lols.
the concert included rock band tat make
the whole SCH look as if its a concert hall for holding concert
when it is actually not suitable.
but still not bad :]
last of all the BEATBOXER!
he was damn damn damn gd.
his beat boxing skills were like OMG!
tat was the best performance.
lotsa CCHY peeps went there.
to support festive drums -.-

Crystal cheeZe!

Rene 0。0

thats melia :]

and jiayan...

huii Yvonne HAHA! tat makeup artist..

the CLIQUE' YEA!

UP　ＮＥＸＴ！
todays special event.
its an advance celebration for
one of our CLIQUE member.
the joker ah mah,
MISS AMELIA TEO! ! !
went to pasir ris park to celebrate Melia's b'dae.
1st up we went to rent bikes to ride.
and ben fell down l0ls
for going down a slope, kinda retarded?!
after riding, we went to the beach for some fun
go to the jiayan,melia, crystal or huii's blog
to check out some pics and videos.
pics on JELLYFISH :]
in my whole life i have nvr seen
so many jellyfish swimming almost up the shore.
BIG ones and SMALL ones.
ALOT of COLOURS too.
got Blue, black, pink, white.
the blue one is nice :]

then had some MV and Movie shooting.
lols i was the photographer,
then the others were the cast.
check out at their blog!
they may have post it.
kinda lame but interesting HAHA.
Dinner time was at this restaurant around pasir ris park.
some seafood restaurant,
tat i dun tink i will go there anymore.
SERVICE = CMI!
but got a quite pretty gal serve us for drinks.
SEX APPEAL! serious.. haha
went to take neoprint, as usual,
for memories ..
during our trip back home.
played some games in MRT.

:and BEN you are seriously a DISGRACE L0L!
dun heart attack again ah..
:AH MAH TEO wish u have a fun day too.
be happy tat u gonna make IC soon HAHA!

some tentacles of the jellyfish tat is left on the beach

do, re, mi, fa, so

it reflects our "BEAUTY".

人不一定要永远坚持对，有时低着头让事情过了
可能对自己对他人都会有好处．
面子并不是最重要的，因为还有很多事与顾虑
回避面子来得更重要．．．

2007-08-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

Days wit CLIQUE, 第二天，晴天
29.8.07

i'm BACK!
finally blogging,
but it seems like lotsa peeps are not blogging.
not much to blog actually, tats y i din blog.
neither i have any new pics.
coz ppl nvr send mi after taking it wit mi.
[applies to some only]
and i am lazi to transfer to my phone.

anyway recent sat,
went to Ruan Xian Concert!
it was NICE :]
Guitar on Fire was damn damn damn nice
and the special guest performer, Shen Fei,
ruan player.
he was damn PRO lar.
those song he played was veri nice.
peiqian so honoured to have a duet wit him. TSK!
i wonder if i will ever had a chance? guess not haha.

todae went out wit quite a few clique members.
we went to far east plaza.
SHOP around,
basically we jus went separate ways during shopping.
the gals wanted to shop their own.
so the pathetic me and ben,
simply jus walk around,
eat eat see see.
and ben u lost to me lol!
our idioms competition.

will try to blog soon!
my dad is cooking for mi wahahaha!
love him!

因为自己的不完美，
所以有了对方来添扑。

2007-08-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第五十七天，晴天
16.08.07

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELESTA!
common test finally over!
but bet i will flunk my science.
it doesn't matter anyway,
such small percentage.
like wat jiayan said:
"no use crying over spilled milk"
[jiayan wit her CHIMOLOGY]

been busy studying for the past few days,
and now finally i am blogging :]
downloaded quite a few shows!
WATCH 终极一家..
its quite lame though but nice.
episode 5 is sad.
guess so? still downloading.

during chinese test tat day,
there was this comprehension on some kind
logic stuff.
abt MEMORIES.
many things just flow through my mind.
if ever we can return the past...

因为曾经拥有, 不愿向求更多.
是吗?
为何不能贪心一点..
分离的感觉应该很难受吧?

2007-08-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

Days wit CLIQUE, 第一天，晴天
10.8.07

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!
the national day concert,
effect and stuff were quite cool.
wasn't tat bad for this year.
this year school talentine concert was -.-
no comments.

attended the SYF celebration at EATZI.
ate and cut cakes and there we go.
went out wit the CLIQUE' today.
was suppose to catch the movie "SECRET"
but end up in KBOX.
recent wed just went
but din get to sing finish our songs,
so end up there again.
sang for 4 hrs and we left for dinner.
few of us went to LONG JOHN, as usual,
to have dinner.
5 of us chat and chat,
somehow just came to this topic
on DEATH and LEAVING.
crazy us huh?
almost cried for a couple of them?
l0ls.
BUT seriously i was tinking
tat i will cry like hell during graduation day
/someone among us realli just die[CHOY].

HERES to the CLIQUE'
being wit u guys was seriously veri fun.
i noe tat there is still 1 and a half year down
before we realli leave ea other.
but it seems like it will pass veri fast.
realli thx alot for this few years of laughter and everithing.
all the happiness and sadness we shared.
[did we have any sad things? not much eh?]
but guys can't bear to leave u all after 1 1/2 years.
the separate ways tat we will be going..
all this happiness will always follow mi in my life :]!
LOVE you guys..

HEHE!

CHEESE!!! :]

只想珍惜现在的所有一切。。。

2007-08-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第四十二天，晴天
1.8.07

HIGH CLASS sheryl moved her house yst.
she invited us to her hse to get crazy!
this are the peeps who went:
ben,qiang,me
alvin,jinler,sixuan
qiaohui,jolene,meiling
kaiting,mingshuang and of coz high class.

her hse was like so BIG,
i love her movie theatre damn cool..
best thing abt it,
is tat everithing inside is control
by a touchscreen PDA-like thing.
basically we played quite long in the pool,
and its freezing cold.
my fingers almost turn BLACK.
had a flour game,
then watched THE RING 2 in her movie theatre.
ordered MAC delivery for dinner
but it came super late and everione is like starving.
too bad tat she is moving to a condo
coz her hse is damn cool.
but high class u r moving to a bigger one in later years yea?!

me and ting in the MOVIE THEATRE

before we jolene was thrown inside the pool

CHEESE~

很多事并不是理所当然，
而是要自己去争取的．

2007-07-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第三十七天，雨天
27.7.07

went to watch INVISIBLE TARGET yst wit the clique.
it was quite NICE :].
been reading harry potter and the DEATHLY HALLOWS,
its getting nice although i am reading veri slowly.
HANA KIMI japanese version is alot nicer!!
try watching it.

anyway peeps staying in woodlands plz be careful!!!
recently frm wat i know,
a couple of frenz got rob by
a malay carrying a penknife with tattoos.
but somehow the malay only wanted hps instead of money.
just be CAREFUL!!!

the lift door was irritating.

CHEESE!!!

要做出的选择以无法
在自己的掌握之中了．．．

2007-07-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第三十四天，雨天
24.7.07

HAPPY BELATED B'DAY QIANG!
last saturday, was sort of a celebration for qiang.
anyway it was quite pathetic i could say.
i guess he expected more ppl to celebrate with him.
basically we were just slacking around rather than celebrating.
three of us as usual and daniel.
then met up wit roy for dinner.
DEATHLY HALLOWS was out on that day
when i return bak to school many ppl
had finish reading the book,
like within 2 days -.-!
i am still reading and its DAMN NICE!
seriously its DAMN NICE!

today's lecture during CS was BORED!!
i was tired today too..
it rained during midnight and
was damn comfortable on my bed,
my lala land..
after my mum switch on my room light,
there goes my lala land..

困扰的烦恼以无法想象,
过去每一份每一秒似乎更痛苦...

2007-07-21T11:49:00.000+08:00

today seems more like my b'day!
it is simply not organize at all.
无话可说！

2007-07-21T00:20:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第三十一天，晴天
21.7.07

just pass 12am,
so considered 21st
yst- 20.7.07
din go for school bazaar,
did i miss any FUN things?
thought of going but was too tired.
met up with yih chyuan, chu ying and sharon.
had a tour around suntec,
just simply slacking,
not much of shopping.
saw fengrong and her stead and a bunch of kids wit him.
feng rong was putting his hand over his stead shoulder,
TYPICALＡＨBENG![banana i am NOT!]
being truthfully his stead is "FAINTs"
can't believe he actually find some RANDOM gal in audition
to stead wit, how ridiculous.
the four of us was like going around suntec
to look for a bridge to shaw tower
and we spend a LONGLONG time looking for it.
had dinner at the famous wanton mee shop at bugis street.
went over to bugis street for a short shopping.
waited for the bus "960" to go home,
somehow we thought the bus would U-turn bak
but it stopped at the last stop at marina square
and the bus uncle force us to leave.
end up we had to take mrt bak home.
during the way to mrt and on mrt was damn fun!
lotsa of stupid jokes and laughter.
anyway its damn retarded.

this ppl happen to be at the same area-
fengrong then saw sheila at bugis
then called ben and they were actually at marina square
which is jus opposite suntec!

the veri nice fountain at suntec, new one!
its quite beautiful as in the effect.

ain't sharon and yih chyuan veri compatible?!

打情骂俏! they just love ea other too much L0L!

yih chyuan so kind to fｅｅｄ me wit dumplings eh!

一丝的温暖就够了。。。

2007-07-18T20:42:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第二十八天，雨天
18.7.07

common test is coming soon.
BLOODY principal
since he came, there was nth better to improve the school
simply jus adding on to our stress.
COMMON TEST!
cchy have nvr had any common test before!
like wth, can't they just let us have a time to take our breathe!
and detention, even 1st attempt we are on for detention.
nvr felt tat stress till sec3, haiz..
maybe stress since i notice tat i had to study.

BAZAAR on friday,
still wondering whether to attend it or not.
quite a lame bazaar,
its better to have a carnival.
worst of all is MAJORITY of the stuff and food are RESTRICTED
just can't believe tat this school is so OMG!
simply FUCKED UP wit this bloody school.
this few days quite into BLK 637,
slacking venue.
as usual got caught for my shoes and hair.
KENNETH NG is simply a hypocrite.
pardon mi for so much of complaints
just trying to let out my anger

今天早上下了一场雨，
看着每一滴一株的雨水从天而降，
脑里突然浮现出很多的画面．
几乎把一切烦恼忘了，
感觉到最近都无法感觉的舒服．．

何时才能结束呢？

2007-07-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

孤独和烦恼的日子，第二十四天，晴天
14。7。07

yst nite was sort of "slacky" nite.
manage to SURPRISE meiling.
ain't the world promoting energy conservation?
but marina bay national day platform SPOTLIGHTs
were still shining in the middle of the nite.
went bak home at around 2.30 on NIGHT RIDER
was the 1st time i took NR.
it was quite a long trip to reach qiang hse
but was veri comfortable,
coz i get to SLP for 40 mins trip.
fell a slp after i bathed.
next day
got bak home and nobody is at home
facing my com,
DAMN BORED!

the lift mirror is DAMN BIG! cheese:]

some random pics that i din post.

临，兵，斗，者，皆，阵，列，在，前
诛邪！
vampire date!!!

似乎已经迷了路,
毫无方向的一直走,
真希望能走出这条路.

这一切的一切何时才能结束呢

2007-07-13T18:46:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，二十五天，凉风
13。7。07

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEILING! in advance
had a short celebration for meiling in school.
met up wit roy kor!
long time din see him,
or rather always din meet up wit him for a long period
after we met the previous time.
he had become alot more thinner,
be4 army was 105kg
now is 85kg!
like omg, GALS seriously go army!
its the best way to cut down ure weight :]

went for CO,
there was some conflict between
the sec4s and mdm teo.
all thx to JUN HONG for
creating so many troublesome stuff
seriously seeing junhong having nth to say
after being "shoot" was "shiok"!
afterall everithing just simply ended.

rushing of meiling's celebration !

活在谎言中或许会让自己比较好过．．．

2007-07-11T12:09:00.001+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第二十三天，阴天
11.july.07

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMANDA!!!
yst celebrated amanda's b'day at seoul garden.
jus some random place.
got a mango cake for her.
perfume,shoe, and smth tat is memorable for her.
SYF presentation ｃｏｎｃｅｒｔ　at nite was still not bad.
just kind of tired out.
banana asked mi to go chjimes after tat but was too tired
sry banana!
banana got mi a banana cake.
it is damn delicious! THX AGAIN!
tat gaohu principal in TJ was OMG!...
so ACT.
had abit of drinks at old market wit
sharon,chuying,yihchyuan and yvonne.
and home sweet home
PON SCHOOL today :]!

SY peeps made by banana

my 2 darlings during the chalet 1 week ago

不想去想，
但却又做不到。

2007-07-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第十六天，晴天
4。7。07

YEA! changed blogskin.
as stated on the skin its by BANANA.
she helped me made my blogskin.
THX BANANA!:]
tink she have used up all her brain juice l0ls.

basically i had relink almost everione, i guess?
recently just tons of study work to do.
OMG, even be4 exam i am gonna be stress out.
SERIOUSLY its TIRING...

事事难料，
不知下一刻会发生什么事，
自己所在乎的一切
会不会在最后一刻才发现到呢?

2007-07-01T17:47:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第十一天，阴天
29。6。2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYAN!
went to celebrate a 2nd round of jiayan's b'day
after school.
had lunch and celebration at jack's place.
wondering tat we are so rich eh?
but we just ordered a student meal
which cost only 6.50.
had "cake surprise" for her.
and she wanted to say smth mushy
but l0ls might be to mushy tat she din said it.

after the celebration return home
to prepare some stuff for chalet.
and then off to the chalet.
it was quite a big chalet tat is at pasir ris park area.
heard my cousin said it was their company's own chalet.
there were more of other company's chalet and a few was like omg!
damn beautiful and big.
but for my cousin's one it was sort of simple
but quite big for a chalet.
4 rooms with 3 toilets in total for the rooms.
a kitchen wit a toilet.
2 living rooms.
a big grass patch and bbq pit.
had red wine wit my cousin
during nite time
tat my face gone red.
then played some cards here and there
and off to slp during midmorning.

烦恼和孤独的日子，第十二天，晴天
30.6.07

woke up quite late in the morning.
had my breakfast.
then off to swimming at downtown east chalet
l0ls.. had to take taxi there.
and the taxi uncle was so kind
to take around 8 ppl in the cab.

there was bbq, buffet
during nite time.
but somehow one of my cousin and
the b'day cousin had some conflict previous nite.
so the nite was somehow quite
saddening for my b'day cousin.
then another cousin gave me white wine l0ls
was too strong tat after one glass my face gone red once more
but not worst than my cousin l0ls.
my cousin ordered a veri nice mango fruit cake,
delicious man.
plus its my fav mango.
played fire crackers and stuff then went to watch
vampire date 2.
then off to bed.

烦恼和孤独的日子，第十三天，晴天
1.7.2007

woke up veri late in the morning too.
had to pack all the stuff, this and tat
the alcoholic drink bought previous nite
was still not drunk, so my cousin once more
ask me drink.
but din feel like drinking so tried to finish half the bottle
in one mouth but went seh seh...
then bak home finally..

事情的表面不是想象中的那么完美，
而是充满了许多疑惑。。。

2007-06-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第七天，晴天
25.6.07

开学第一天似乎和以前没那么一样，
以前都很期待上学的我
现在却一点也不念学校
可能因为读书的压力吧？
上学第一件事就被捉头发，
老师们真是无聊没事做。。

烦恼和孤独的日子，第八天，晴天
26。6。07

开学才第二天就没去学校，
不是我不要去！
事睡过头！！！

烦恼和孤独的日子，第九天，晴天
27。6。07

今天学校普普通通，
就一直做功课
又在被捉头发
还被剪！！
嗨。。。
明天想必又是无聊的一天

2007-06-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第五天

Happy B'day QINGDE!!
yst went to celebrate qing de b'dae
at! marina bay -.-
...
but today is his b'dae
be4 tat met up wit some sy peeps
realli SOME only... how pathetic
many ppl din come..
junyuan,joel,jingdong,wanying,sylvia,ker yih
and mi...
when there are suppose to be manymany more..
haiz..
the trip was sort of RANDOM l0ls
we actually entered sentosa for around less than 1 hr
including looking at junyuan eat
played in the sea water awhile and
everione decided to go ice skating
how random..
sentosa was EXTREME HOT
ice skating rink was EXTREME COLD
joel actually brought notes to study at sentosa
and during ice skating but he was at the same page
for the whole trip l0ls..

after tat went to meet the guys at marina bay
same old thing only ate awhile
went for pool and damn AUNTIE was damn
attitude lar...
but was veri HIGH at pool l0ls
tink i am crazy?
then we were off to the beach to chat
then some peeps came over to my hse
to slp over..
had alot of boys chat at my hse too
Finally my holiday had ended wit a happy day..

烦恼和孤独的日子，第六天，晴天

had a new hair cut :]
slack a whole day at home
and done a few of my hmwrk
then to school tml..
3 same words to describe school for now..
SIAN SIAN SIAN

结果不重要，重要的是经过
的点点滴滴美好的过程．．

2007-06-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

烦恼和孤独的日子，第一天，晴天

recent tuesday
the same CLIQUE
went to celebrate JIAYAN's b'dae in advance
actually forgotten to post omg!!
it was unique and tiring trip..
to the ZOO!!
din manage to walk over the whole zoo
SURPRISINGLY i was the last to be late!!!
we were suppose to meet at 11.30 but i reach at 11.50
around there.. l0ls then came sihui
LASTLY, 2 prince who came at 1+
prince ben and qiang
....
nite time jiayan treated us to SAKAE!!!
ate quite alot coz i din eat for the whole day :]
and we simply ended our day at the arcade ...

THANKS JIAYAN!!! HAPPY B'day in ADVANCE too :]

the white tiger-
it is actually eating his MEAT like veri yummy like tat l0ls

the CUTE PENGUINS!!!

me and melia at make a new frend

it was suppose to be an otter but it swam too fast

pics at MAKE A NEW FREND!!
making presents for jiayan last week..

烦恼和孤独的日子，第三天，晴天

attended the MOE camp concert
although it was better than last year but still
quite alrite..
the big cymbal in 难忘的泼水节 seriously -.-!!!
1st time learn how to play?
alot of OUTＯＦtune no offence haha
....
cant imagine how serious mr KU scolds them..
before the concert met BANANA at paya lebar
and i got my new SUONA bag, Finally..
after concert went to orchard with banana
had pepper lunch for dinner..
and stated my search for a surfing pants..
frm PACIFIC plaza to heeren and bak to pacific plaza again
l0ls.. and FINALLY bought it too...
then　ｈｏｍｅ　ｓｗｅｅｔ　ｈｏｍｅ．．

自己在想什么
可能自己也不知道
心情好乱．．．

2007-06-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

突然间又为很多事情烦恼
好讨厌一直这样子烦
而这些烦恼似乎不能解决
好想发泄发泄一下。。。

2007-06-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

it has been 7 days of not updating!
and i am bak!
lazi to post the pics
nid to transfer frm phone and this and that
just so troublesome.
these 7 days not much activity going on
just keep going to ppl hse to TAUNT!
yst went to watch Fantastic four: rise of the silver surfer
HIGHLY RECOMMENDED :]
i had gotten some new clothes
FINALLY!
got a new anime that i can watch too!
DRAGON DRIVE
highly recommended too..
thx daryl for recommending that to mi
and help mi kill my boredness
LOVE YOU MAN!s
holiday is coming to an end soon
thats fast yea?!
gonna be bak to studies time, which is worst!
just can't imagine how my end year result will be
SICKＯＦSTUDYING!

p.s. daryl: noe u won't be seeing this until u come bak,
but TAKE CARE at malaysia, i wan my GUMS :]!!!

很多事都快把我忙得
几乎透不过气来,
可能这样也好,
至少能忘掉很多东西,
也不想去想....

2007-06-07T01:17:00.000+08:00

some RANDOM post today..
find the random word so nice haha?!
cox of the NEW OAP UK clan influence bah
today was the post-concert celebration!
enjoy it alot.. imagine lar MR YEH and MR KU
and some instructors actually PLAYED with us
WHACKO & 比手话脚
peiqian got us some ice-cream cakes which was
damn delicious and it cost her $120 !
THX PEIQIAN!
qin bing ma YONG1 & qin bing ma YONG3
which is correct?! l0ls
the nice food! that sour chicken :]!
after everithing, same old thing - went to slack at marina square's MAC
and got home this late again haha..
after this it might the last time to gather with some ppl..
but seriously i enjoyed alot wit the SYCO peeps these days
although many ppl might not be joining wit us during beautiful sunday
but these days was indeed veri memorable..
4 most memorable times i had till now
-evergreen pri
-evergreen pri CO
-sec3 camp
-SYCO '07

these were the things i seriously miss alot of..
always wished time could be slower...
din post pics today but will after i gotten the pics:]

很多事情是自己无法控制的
就只能顺其自然
虽然必定会难过
但我们只能是着去接受..

2007-06-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

1 week of practice is finally over!

and the CONCERT ended happily & sadly
everione was in white during REHEARSAL:]

SYCO ANGELS !!

went out with some SY peeps yst be4 concert
it was damn fun yst!
played alot, took lots of pics too :]

SMILE!!! :] 西瓜甜不甜？　甜！！！

first JUMP at VIVO!! WHEEE !! 2nd JUMP at conference hall!!!

someone actually change the wrong score for mr KU!
and he had to tell the audience to wait for him to get the correct score!!
many ppl leaving and ppl going for exam..
ppl with Os and As gd luck!

S Y C O ! cheese! right be4 concert

final JUMP of the day and supper time!!

some pic with sy PEEPS!

mii and jiawei mii and KU PAO WEN

mii and BANANA!!! mii and jessly

mii and JONATHAN!!

LOVE SYCO!!!! <33

讨厌思念的感觉。。。

2007-05-29T10:54:00.000+08:00

alot ppl FLYING today!

HAVE FUN!
some pics on during my sis b'day

HAPPY BELATED B'day YUNGHUI!!!
went to celebrate YUNG HUI's B'day on sunday
at MARINA SOUTH again -.-
went there to play only instead of eating..

mi and JOleneact DAO?!

the gals TWIT! l0lsbend too much -.-

接受会比逃避好。。

2007-05-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

1stHAPPY BELATED B'DAY
JOLENE!!![around 1hr belated?]
2ndHAPPY B'DAY BANANA 1!!! :]
3rdHAPPY B'DAY TO MY SIS!!!

wow so many wishes :]!
ITS HOLIDAY!!!
been slacking in school and at home this week
finally a week of boring days are over!
heres my report card:overall
English: 51.5[C6]
Chinese: 71.5[A2]
MATHS: 47.5[D7]
Science: 72.0[A2]
Humanities: 51.8[C6]
F&N: 68.1[B3]
Computer Studies: 60.1[B4]
Percentage: 60.4
Total: 442.5/700
Class position: 13/44
Level postition: 96/219

my results sucks man
Flung so many subjects
MATHS! -.-

SYCO concert is coming on JUNE 2ND! next SATURDAY
we are playing:
Overture- 奋勇前进!!!!
Spring- 春
Fantasia "Terra-cotta Warriors"- 秦兵马俑幻想曲
海上第一人
Zhongruan duet
erhu solo
just $13, $16, $20
GRAB YOUR TIX NOW! :]

SURPRISINGLY mr ku had a sudden change in mood
these days l0l!
he actually indirectly insulted MOE camp
but praise us..
AND he is getting more and more HUMOROUS
tink we gonna have better days for the next few practices..

nth to do :] so caught a pic of him!
got one part he was playing zhonghu but din manage to take it down ..

P.S: PPL going to xiamen and genting HAVE FUN!!!
take good care!!!

很多事情并不是自己想象中一样重要
因为自己没注意到还有更重要的是罢了。。

2007-05-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

Got my papers except F&N

Eng-20/50[my class 1 pass]
Social studies- 17/50[whole cohord only a FEW passes!]
Chinese-45/70[like WTF]
E.Geog- 25.5
Chemistry-28.5/50
Physics- 43/50
Maths- 37/100[whole class 11 passes, highest 60!!]
Com. studies- 56/100
FLUNG MY WHOLE MID YEAR MAN!!!
MATHS paper :]

18.5.07
Went to celebrate ELIZABETH & SHAYNA b'dae!
HAPPY B'DAY IN ADVANCE !!!
went to E2MAX chamber
quite a cool room hahx..
then to V.LARGE for dinner
the stuff were damn EXPENSIVE!
but still quite nice..
then to POOL
where beth suddenly become so HIGH!!!
tired and fun nite :]!! still here to post!

home sweet home TIME

shayna's "CAKE"

shayna and celestaBeth cakeNarayan and Beth l0ls SCREAMING!

disgusting MONSTER food[ alot of ingredients] damn EEK

narayan having the MONSTER food

失去并不是世界末日
因为身边还有许多
比自己失去的更珍惜自己的人。。。

伤心不只是自己
但周围所在乎所关心自己的人
都也会一一为自己而伤心。。。

2007-05-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

here to UPDATE!
not much to say actually
my result bah..
COM STUDIES- 56/100 -.-
CHEMISTRY- 28.5/50
so suck!!!
shld work harder sia..
today din go school coz ALOT ppl kena cut hair!!
l0ls.. 1 week HOLIS..
finally able to rest, stress for dunno how many weeks liao..

ps to jiayan: we are always here for you even without him..
he doesn't deserve ure LOVE!!

放弃就等于判了自己死刑，
只要还觉得有一线希望就应该执著下去
每件事都必须要自己去判断才能得到答案，
就算做错选择都不要紧，从头再来还是可以的。。。